FauxEmotions
Tod durch das Seil
- Mar 28, 2019
- 194
She has no idea (of course) of my plans to ctb but she does know of this weird thing that happens when I drink where I get insane chest pains, enough to really just leave me soaking in a warm tub. Anyway, I told her I went to the casino last night and drank, she kept telling me to be careful because she doesn't want me to die, she doesn't want to bury me early. I couldn't help but scream in my head but I want to die, I'm going to hang myself. Mom, I'm going to die.
And it tore me to pieces. She weirdly knows what's going on in my head without even mentioning anything. I don't talk to her much because I get weird anxiety to talk on the phone even to my mother.... I can't put that misery on her, I don't want her to bury her son, but all I want is death.
And it tore me to pieces. She weirdly knows what's going on in my head without even mentioning anything. I don't talk to her much because I get weird anxiety to talk on the phone even to my mother.... I can't put that misery on her, I don't want her to bury her son, but all I want is death.