I never got the diagnosis but I figured it out because of YouTube. I was being medicated since my 20's because I was really struggling as a result of my childhood but the medical complex at least at that time didn't even acknowledge or care that I was struggling so bad because I had not had my needs met as a kid and failed to learn how to manage emotions, solve problems, effective coping skills in relationships etc. So basically I started to believe that I was just a loser and felt totally hopeless about any kind of future.
It's a cruel way to treat people who were harmed in childhood and need help to overcome some of this damage. Instead they are more than willing to never address any of this and wait till u end up in jail, hospitalized, or something lol! This is likely the reason the US has the highest rate of incarceration in the world. Plus more people are likely to have this outcome if u come from a single mother home. In this system we encourage women to become single mothers instead of trying to discourage it or prevent it.
