dudewheresthebus

dudewheresthebus

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Oct 17, 2024
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Thank God for this forum. I think I would have seriously not have gotten this chance without this forum. I've been suffering for so long. And I don't have to suffer anymore because of this community.

I'm catching the bus tonight. I thought I would wait until Wednesday but I'm exhausted from my life. Here's what will go down tonight: (Using DMC SN)

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October 21st

6:00 - 10mg Meto
14:00 - 10mg Meto
Begin fasting (food).
16:00 - Arrive at hotel
Write note on paper, warning housekeeping to call police after checkout time.
Prepare a trash can in case of vomit for later near bed
Setup Suicide note (physical)
Setup Suicide note (email schedule send)

20:00 - Begin fasting (water)
Bath.
21:00 - 800mg Advil

21:25 - 30mg Meto
50mg Trazodone and 1.5mg melatonin.
Wipe out phone

22:00- Weight out SN 25g*2.
Measure out water.
22:05 - mix 2 glass of SN drink with plastic spoon
22:10 - Drink 1st cup, if needed, 2nd

Listen to final playlist.
Write shit on forum
Layback when I can't take it anymore lol

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I will have my friend confirm ctb on this forum. I will attempt to document any feelings/pain/experiences before I pass on this forum page as well. It's the least I can do for this forum.
 
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Hope the journey is gentle.
 
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Praestat_Mori

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Safe travels and good luck! I hope u find peace!
 
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sweetcreep

sweetcreep

reincarnating as a worm
Jul 21, 2024
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i really hope it's peaceful for you. i saw your post in partners and noticed we're both from the same location. i'll be keeping you in my thoughts today, hoping everything goes well for you.
 
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LostSoul1965

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May your journey be smooth and pleasant. Hope you find the peace and happiness you deserve. ❤️
 
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Buh-bye!

jkfajsd
Jan 10, 2024
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i am so happy for you smiling

upset too though but yeah

luck
 
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Innereye

Innereye

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It sounds like you thought this one through. Good luck. I hope it goes well regardless of the decision you make.
 
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FuneralCry

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I hope you find the peace from the suffering you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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rozeske

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I wish you the best in your plans. I hope you find your peace.
 
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dudewheresthebus

dudewheresthebus

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Oct 17, 2024
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Fuckin so bored it's tough. Part of being sick is the lack of interest in anything, I'm like limbo watching the clock. Glad to go to the hotel in 30 mins or so. Preparing some chamomile tea to relax me and pass the time during the fast.
 
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athiestjoe

athiestjoe

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Sep 24, 2024
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I am so sorry to hear it has come to this point but I fully understanding the need to get your self-deliverance! Looks like you made all the clarifications/edits that were sent over, looks like a solid protocol now.

We're here if for some reason you do not follow through, no matter what! With whatever you decide, wishing you the absolute best of luck on your journey, and hope you find peace & serenity.
 
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dudewheresthebus

dudewheresthebus

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Oct 17, 2024
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Thanks Joe. I'm cutting the timeline down a bit and already ingested the 30mg Meto. Looks like it'll happen a bit sooner tonight. I'm very exhausted and impatient at this point. Keep you guys updated.
 
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DeadNotSleeping

DeadNotSleeping

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Oct 7, 2024
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Best of luck on your travels. Glad you found a way out that works for you
 
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I wish you peace and serenity to see it through, if this is what you want. May your soul find the rest it deserves, if not a beautiful new world to awaken in.
 
dudewheresthebus

dudewheresthebus

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Oct 17, 2024
24
Drank it. Salty, but not as salty as NaCl + 50ml water. 1 min in now and feel nothing
 
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opheliaoveragain

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We are here with you. Wishing you peace and relief.
 
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dudewheresthebus

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3:30 - feeling nauseous
 
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Bear1234

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WIshing you please <3 I hope its not painful at all and there is minimal or zero discomfort
 
dudewheresthebus

dudewheresthebus

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Oct 17, 2024
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10:30 vomitting a lot, took half o seocnd cup. Super uncomfy, tachyardcia sucks
 
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AuroraB

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Oct 20, 2024
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hope you're feeling less tachy right now. how does one "wipe out phone" and then "write on forum?" wishing you all the best.
 
DeadNotSleeping

DeadNotSleeping

Just an absolute mess.
Oct 7, 2024
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hope you're feeling less tachy right now. how does one "wipe out phone" and then "write on forum?" wishing you all the best.
Probably just wipe photos/messages and whatnot. SaSu on browser after
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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Jun 2, 2024
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Hoping peace is imminent
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

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Mar 23, 2018
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Wishing you peace from this horrible world. :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart:
 
opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

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@dudewheresthebus are you with us?

Edit: last seen 30 min ago. Wishing you the best.
 
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lebrodude

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Jul 18, 2022
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These threads always move me.
OP I hope it took you quick with as little suffering as possible.

Whenever I have a stomach ache (which is sadly frequent these days) I always think SN won't be for me I can't take the stomach pain too well.
 
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i came back to check on you. i hope you're ok now and have found peace. i'm planning to be there soon too.
 

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