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AnestheticVoid

AnestheticVoid

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Feb 17, 2022
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I'm currently living in my grandma's house. She died last month. She was really my mom because my mom wasn't around while I was growing up. My mom worked night shift and she'd leave me with my grandma. My grandma was a drug addict while I know she loved me she really didn't watch me. I was always left to my own devices. When I was 10 years old I decided to burn our trailer down because my mom started dating. So she went from never really being around for me to dating and at that age I was not okay with that. Like you're gonna create me but never be around for me and now you decide you want to start finding a partner. I was like fuck that. I started a fire in our trailer.

My grandma stuck up for and said fuck everybody my grandbaby wouldnt do that but that's exactly what I did 😂. Afterwards we always would joke with each other about what I did. I was her favorite grand child.

My uncle (her son) committed suicide in a house across the street. I feel it's fitting to kill myself in her house and burn it down at the same time. I think I'll burn it down. I'll hang myself in the "smoke room" where we'd smoke cigarettes and cannabis and talk. I think that's what I'll do.

Anybody else feel the need to CTB in a place with sentimental value?
 
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brnggundottxt

brnggundottxt

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Mar 12, 2022
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I get what you're coming from. Reminds me of my grandmother. I loved her a lot.

I would personally rather not be found by anyone.
 
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