Bucket list?

[Carcassus]

I've finally decided I'm going to catch the bus. I've chosen hanging as a preferred method. While I'm working on some details, I'll probably post a different thread with some questions about said method, I thought to myself - why not do something I've never done before, radical or small, it doesn't matter since I'll hopefully be gone soon.

I want to ctb in two weeks time and while I'm planning and preparing everything, why not do or try something? I know some people have a list, a bucket list of things they want to try before they die. I'm aware that most of those people are not suffering daily and are actually looking forward to live another day. But still, I tried to think of something and I couldn't. It was saddening. I am at the end of my life, completely devoid of any kind of interest or desire. The only thing I want is the peacefulness of death. The only thing that briefly crossed my mind was magic mushrooms. And that was it. This has now completely solidified my decision to end my life.
Even though I'm happy I've come to a decision, I still thought that there'd be something now that it doesn't matter, but there isn't I guess.

Just for the sake of it, is there anything you would like to do or try before you, well, kick the bucket?

 

[brokenspirited]

I don't have a bucket list, I just wish to be gone.

 

[chudeatte]

I dont really have a bucket list. id at least like to travel, but I know I probably never will because im broke. tbh the desire to ctb kinda outweighs anything id like to try, I see it as pointless since ill be gone anyway so im kinda indifferent. I wish I had drive and ambition like normal people but oh well

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, all I want is to peacefully cease existing as well, all I see as desirable is the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where this torturous and futile existence is all gone and forgotten, I just want to never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish to exist and I find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence, to me existing will always be only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from it all, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[Forveleth]

Having things I would like to do before I die prompts me to stay alive. I would rather kill myself when the mood strikes without a thought of something left undone.

 

[Carcassus]

Having things I would like to do before I die prompts me to stay alive. I would rather kill myself when the mood strikes without a thought of something left undone.

Didn't mean as something that's 'left undone', but as something you could do with relief and basically without consequence. I understand though. Nobody wants false hope.