
dazed.daydreamer
Member
- Jun 26, 2024
- 68
Hey, it's been a while. I tried to push through and live, as I have many times before, and like always, I end up back here. Realizing my defectiveness is inherent and no matter how much I want to move past it, this is not an option. I once again tried medication, therapy, and self-help with little success. I have to accept that if I live, I will live like this long-term, and that simply isn't it worth it for me or the people around me, regardless of how scared I am of death deep down. I am nothing but a leech on society and on my loved ones, I find little joy in living, and the fact I haven't killed myself yet despite realizing this years ago, only because of my own fear, is unjustifiably selfish. I'm planning to CTB some time before May this year, probably April so I have time for preparations.
I'll probably hang myself, that's always been my planned method because it's the most realistic and reliable for me. But I am curious if there are any bridges in the USA, preferably over water rather than land, that are tall enough for jumping off to guarantee death and accessible. I would be willing to take a long road trip to get there; that could be a nice final day, even. So, are there any left that don't have safety nets/etc?
I'll probably hang myself, that's always been my planned method because it's the most realistic and reliable for me. But I am curious if there are any bridges in the USA, preferably over water rather than land, that are tall enough for jumping off to guarantee death and accessible. I would be willing to take a long road trip to get there; that could be a nice final day, even. So, are there any left that don't have safety nets/etc?