nembutal
everything will be okay in the end
- Jul 14, 2022
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last week i saw my homeless friend and decided to get us a hotel room for the night so he'd have a place to stay. well he ended up caressing me and now im rushing to provide for him again. there's a strong possibility that his affection towards me is conditional as i provided him shelter but my puppy dog mind does not care. i buckle under physical touch like a mutt desperate for an owner.
i used to see a guy every week until his attention toward me dwindled and i assured myself that if to meet his gaze meant to toil begrudgingly through the rest of the days of the week id do it. i skipped work for him, i made sure he didn't spend a dime around me, i satisfied every one of his awkward kinks, just so he'd continue keeping me around.
i get into these flings for an illusionary sense of purpose although i am ALWAYS inevitably hurt when i realize i am worth nothing more than a hook up to the other party.
i continue to fight off intent in hopes of finding my "soulmate" but i can barely find anyone who'd give me an ounce of attention outside of bed.
i used to see a guy every week until his attention toward me dwindled and i assured myself that if to meet his gaze meant to toil begrudgingly through the rest of the days of the week id do it. i skipped work for him, i made sure he didn't spend a dime around me, i satisfied every one of his awkward kinks, just so he'd continue keeping me around.
i get into these flings for an illusionary sense of purpose although i am ALWAYS inevitably hurt when i realize i am worth nothing more than a hook up to the other party.
i continue to fight off intent in hopes of finding my "soulmate" but i can barely find anyone who'd give me an ounce of attention outside of bed.
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