Discussion Both excited and devastated. How to cope?

[aurevoir]

So I've landed on my exit and for a moment I was overwhelmed with joy. But the deeper into "getting things together" to make it easier for loved ones, I'm back to debilitating depression. I'm still going through with it so my question is how do you deal with the pain from the thoughts of hurting your loved ones? And is there anything y'all are doing to try and ease their pain?

TIA

 

[EmptyBottle]

Welcome. Glad you've found a bit of joy again, hopefully more joyful moments can be found.

When I tried CTB, I somehow didn't even think of that (nor about the risks of interruption, but I stopped the attempt after discovering the skipped steps lead to it being useless).

I'm also wondering what can be done to ease the pain for people here, eg what types of therapy and support help, what types to be careful about, etc.

Tho one can describe their situation and users (me and others), can try and assist where we can.

 

[thelostautistic]

Honestly I don't think there's much you can do about this. If people care about you then leaving is going to hurt them. I'm thinking of writing a very lengthy note for my family to explain why I made the choice I did. It won't take the pain away but it might answer some of their questions and give them some closure

 

[aurevoir]

Honestly I don't think there's much you can do about this. If people care about you then leaving is going to hurt them. I'm thinking of writing a very lengthy note for my family to explain why I made the choice I did. It won't take the pain away but it might answer some of their questions and give them some closure

I'm currently writing letters and trying to get different resources together that they can use to cope. Although idk if they'll be so angry at me that they'll just disregard them.

I love your username btw

Welcome. Glad you've found a bit of joy again, hopefully more joyful moments can be found.

When I tried CTB, I somehow didn't even think of that (nor about the risks of interruption, but I stopped the attempt after discovering the skipped steps lead to it being useless).

I'm also wondering what can be done to ease the pain for people here, eg what types of therapy and support help, what types to be careful about, etc.

Tho one can describe their situation and users (me and others), can try and assist where we can.

Thank you, I'm really glad I found this site. It's nice to know there are people who get it but at the same time I wish no one else had to feel this pain.

I've mostly put others comfort and well being over my own and it seems that's the main thing that's kept me here up to this point. I watched my grandma breakdown after she had to let my grandpa go and it just sucks knowing she's gonna have to deal with my death too.

 

[DecayAndAsh]

I dont think there's anything that can be done to ease the pain, especially at first. In previous drafts of my suicide note for my parents I've left a series of resources for people experiencing that kind of loss. Various suicide prevention orgs have them. It probably wouldn't help but I get an e for effort I guess. I'm working on a message to send my friends to try to put their minds at ease. It reads as kind of unhinged so it might do more harm than good.

 

[thelostautistic]

I love your username btw

Why thank you it really sums me up