Story Born to die

[Ratbat]

I really think i shudve been aborted cos i feel like i was just born to die literally nothing ive done to in my life has worked no matter how hard i work at it or even with good connectuons i always picked the wrong girl mainly cos im socially inept and ashamed of liking men ended up with either a cheating slag who like all the other girls only wanted to be with me so she could hurt me .or prudish disabled bitches who only care about them self i deserved better but i guess im just like an afterbirth mental case anyway so maybe not ive been used as a vessel for some dark lord he just lets evil "cruel intentions" cults have their way with me ive tried to mainline so many times but like a cockroach i never die and yet i keep makin mistakes that just make life unbearable i shpuldve died when i was a teenager then all these mistakes i made wouldnt have happened cos know one noticed my mental health problems as a child i just breezed along fuckin things up just to be accepted by the wrong people just snakes it seemed out to get me the only way out is death but theres no easy way i can try drowning i guess but i know my si will kick in as always i feel like starting a fight cos ive bottled up so much where ive let everyone just walk over me all my life like a doormat my exs and my teachers etc i used to cover my depression with drugs but i cant get hi anymore so my family hates me cos they fpund put about it .. ah man i wrote so many good songs wpuldve been nicd to record a demo but had my home studio destrpyed by perps and my laptop crashed guezs i should be dead anyway music was the only thing keepin me goin but i cant even complete my pieces now

 

[c824767]

you got the lyrics!!!!

 

[Ratbat]

you got the lyrics!!!!

Yeah plu everyone in my life was an actor so i dont wven know if any thing was sincere i mean if they were all actors how can they be zincere they all lied to me

 

[c824767]

Yeah plu everyone in my life was an actor so i dont wven know if any thing was sincere i mean if they were all actors how can they be zincere they all lied to me

when you are at the bottom,rock bottom, when you are suicidal for months on end and you feel like you are the least worthy of all humans, and there are friends in your life who still tell you you are beautiful and that they would be devastated if you were to disappear. Is when you believe it.Because it would be cruel not to and we do not need any more cruelty here other than the "system" of corruption we allowed to be weaved around us like a tangled web of disgustingness

 

[Ratbat]

when you are at the bottom,rock bottom, when you are suicidal for months on end and you feel like you are the least worthy of all humans, and there are friends in your life who still tell you you are beautiful and that they would be devastated if you were to disappear. Is when you believe it.

Well my mum is herr but i havent spoken proper ly to anyone in a long time plus running ojt pf meds no sleep makes everything worse i just want to sleep forver my dreams are ok but this half life is pitiful

 

[c824767]

Well my mum is herr but i havent spoken proper ly to anyone in a long time plus running ojt pf meds no sleep makes everything worse i just want to sleep forver my dreams are ok but this half life is pitiful

I am advocating that for every cup of coffee sold the coffee shop has to give out a sleeping pill that WORKS.

 

[jgm63]

Sorry to hear.....
We'll try to support you as best we can.....
Have you definitely decided that you want to CTB ?
If so, have you decided upon a method ?

Disclaimer : Please note that I strongly recommend against taking any action that would cause harm to yourself. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible to prevent harm coming to yourself. I do not encourage you or anyone to do anything that would cause harm to yourself or themselves. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping yourself out of harm's way.

 

[Ratbat]

you got the lyrics!!!!

If it means i get to spend more time with you
Then im not wasting my love life
The only places ive tried to discover
Are the journeys i take to get to know your souls

Sorry to hear.....
We'll try to support you as best we can.....
Have you definitely decided that you want to CTB ?
If so, have you decided upon a method ?

Disclaimer : Please note that I strongly recommend against taking any action that would cause harm to yourself. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible to prevent harm coming to yourself. I do not encourage you or anyone to do anything that would cause harm to yourself or themselves. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping yourself out of harm's way.

Thanks i neef at least 12 hpurs.of sleep or im like pure angry and ive been awakr since lunctime.yesterday
Or

I am advocating that for every cup of coffee sold the coffee shop has to give out a sleeping pill that WORKS.

Or a cyanide pill

Sorry to hear.....
We'll try to support you as best we can.....
Have you definitely decided that you want to CTB ?
If so, have you decided upon a method ?

Disclaimer : Please note that I strongly recommend against taking any action that would cause harm to yourself. Please seek assistance in any and every way possible to prevent harm coming to yourself. I do not encourage you or anyone to do anything that would cause harm to yourself or themselves. You alone must decide upon your actions and take full responsibility for them, and you should always favour seeking help and keeping yourself out of harm's way.

To catch the bus us probably the last big event of.my life i think ive been destined from birth to do it ...

 

[jgm63]

If it means i get to spend more time with you
Then im not wasting my love life
The only places ive tried to discover
Are the journeys i take to get to know your souls

Thanks i neef at least 12 hpurs.of sleep or im like pure angry and ive been awakr since lunctime.yesterday
Or
Or a cyanide pill

To catch the bus us probably the last big event of.my life i think ive been destined from birth to do it ...

ok, so what thoughts have you had regarding which method ?

 

[ValideSultana]

I really think i shudve been aborted cos i feel like i was just born to die literally nothing ive done to in my life has worked no matter how hard i work at it or even with good connectuons i always picked the wrong girl mainly cos im socially inept and ashamed of liking men ended up with either a cheating slag who like all the other girls only wanted to be with me so she could hurt me .or prudish disabled bitches who only care about them self i deserved better but i guess im just like an afterbirth mental case anyway so maybe not ive been used as a vessel for some dark lord he just lets evil "cruel intentions" cults have their way with me ive tried to mainline so many times but like a cockroach i never die and yet i keep makin mistakes that just make life unbearable i shpuldve died when i was a teenager then all these mistakes i made wouldnt have happened cos know one noticed my mental health problems as a child i just breezed along fuckin things up just to be accepted by the wrong people just snakes it seemed out to get me the only way out is death but theres no easy way i can try drowning i guess but i know my si will kick in as always i feel like starting a fight cos ive bottled up so much where ive let everyone just walk over me all my life like a doormat my exs and my teachers etc i used to cover my depression with drugs but i cant get hi anymore so my family hates me cos they fpund put about it .. ah man i wrote so many good songs wpuldve been nicd to record a demo but had my home studio destrpyed by perps and my laptop crashed guezs i should be dead anyway music was the only thing keepin me goin but i cant even complete my pieces now

You may feel like you're worthless, like you're nothing; but you're not worthless. You're not nothing. You're a good guy who's had a bad life. Never forget that.

 

[Jean4]

Maybe I read it wrong, but you are ashamed of being gay. Why?

 

[Ratbat]

I

Maybe I read it wrong, but you are ashamed of being gay. Why?

I usef to be when i was younger

You may feel like you're worthless, like you're nothing; but you're not worthless. You're not nothing. You're a good guy who's had a bad life. Never forget that.

Thanks dude