RealLostSoul
once rock bottom, always rock bottom
- Oct 11, 2019
- 211
Growing up with depression there is no way I can make it out alive. My momma always told me it will be better when I graduated from school and go to university but in fact it just got worse. More and more weight on my shoulders, responsibilities, loneliness and a miserable life where there is no end in sight. It feels like a prison and I have like 60 to life ahead of me. I can't think clear straight. Some years more and I'll get the phd, then a 9-5 job, a house and a family with someone I don't even care for or have any feelings for. I suffer through life, every second is soaked in pain until I am 6 below. What a bullshit. The unfair thing though, I put much effort into things to get better but they simply didn't. Therapy and meds are scam for me. No therapy for my destiny. It's just how things are.