birthdays feelings

[braziliansuicidegirl]

Birthdays are ambiguous for me. On the one hand I think "wow I survived another year" and on the other hand I think "Why am I still here?".
When I was around 12 I was sure I would never make it to 18, I was sure I would kill myself at some point. Today I'm 22 years old and I'm still here, still sure I'm going to kill myself but surprise that I survived so long.
I wonder if I'll live until the next one
Anyway, birthdays are confusing and I don't see many reasons to celebrate today. But hey, Alexa play 22 by Taylor Swift

How do you guys feel about birthdays?

 

[JM2RXA]

Pretty much just another day for me, and I completely get the whole "another year I'm still here" thing.

I really don't like celebrations, whether that's BIrthdays, Christmas, whatever else.

 

[pyamu]

When I was around 12 I was sure I would never make it to 18, I was sure I would kill myself at some point. Today I'm 22 years old and I'm still here, still sure I'm going to kill myself but surprise that I survived so long

I've never related to a sentence on here better than this one. When I was 13, I didn't think I would make it to 14, and so on. My birthday each year simply reminds me of what I've failed to do, which is commit suicide. I wasn't supposed to be alive this long, and all I feel is guilt. I hate birthdays. They only serve as a reminder of my lack of courage to commit suicide.
Happy birthday though. I don't know if it means much, but I'm proud of you for having survived this long. It must have been so painful and it takes a lot of strength in this cruel world.

 

[theboy]

Me too!

I wish u happy birthday

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, birthdays are just another day to me but I always hate the fact that I've managed to exist here for yet another year and I also hate what birthdays represent which is the day in which this awful existence very sadly started. I'm also 22 and I really wish that I left this world at a much earlier age, I've been here for far too long, it's very unfortunate that I'm still here. At least to me, I see it as being preferable to leave this world as soon as possible so the fact that I have existed for one more year could never be something to celebrate.

 

[Whole-Ad]

I dislike my birthday. I should've been dead at 21 but here I am at 23, still feeling the same way.

 

[Kualk]

I think that's just something everyone feels like as they grow up, you don't see many adult normal people having birthday parties nowadays.
I didn't quite catch if today is your birthday, if so I hope you pass it well.

 

[girlsboysthems]

Birthdays are ambiguous for me. On the one hand I think "wow I survived another year" and on the other hand I think "Why am I still here?".
When I was around 12 I was sure I would never make it to 18, I was sure I would kill myself at some point. Today I'm 22 years old and I'm still here, still sure I'm going to kill myself but surprise that I survived so long.
I wonder if I'll live until the next one
Anyway, birthdays are confusing and I don't see many reasons to celebrate today. But hey, Alexa play 22 by Taylor Swift

How do you guys feel about birthdays?

same here. its a yearly reminder that i should be dead...

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I don't celebrate my birthday. It's not worth celebrating. Just another day to me.

 

[katara]

I felt the same exact way when I was 12. I thought I'd either be dating and in love at 16, or dead. I'm pretty sure I cried on my 16th. I don't even have any friends :/

 

[manocsak]

Born on 1st of April... what a joke..., half of the people first response "REALLY?! the other half tries to be funny...