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- Jun 10, 2021
- 65
my birthday is tomorrow, and no one in my family cared to ask what i wanted as a gift or cared enough to make plans. i feel so alone and unseen. i hope my friends will make an effort to see me and not back out of plans. that would make me feel truly pathetic.
my girlfriend and i broke up a few days ago. we dated a year and it hurts. she had some choice words that i'll never forget. my car broke down so i'm stuck in my house feeling sorry for myself because everything seems to be going wrong. i tried partial suspension yesterday but backed out (it hurt/i don't even know if i want to ctb yet). i told my best friend about it and she didn't really even care to engage with me. why is no one caring? am i that trash of a human? i feel like im an active listener for people and go out of my way to make people feel special, and in return, not only do i get nothing, but i'm treated poorly.
i know birthdays are hard for everyone here.
edit: the family part hurts the most because i just wanted them to say they're proud of me
my girlfriend and i broke up a few days ago. we dated a year and it hurts. she had some choice words that i'll never forget. my car broke down so i'm stuck in my house feeling sorry for myself because everything seems to be going wrong. i tried partial suspension yesterday but backed out (it hurt/i don't even know if i want to ctb yet). i told my best friend about it and she didn't really even care to engage with me. why is no one caring? am i that trash of a human? i feel like im an active listener for people and go out of my way to make people feel special, and in return, not only do i get nothing, but i'm treated poorly.
i know birthdays are hard for everyone here.
edit: the family part hurts the most because i just wanted them to say they're proud of me
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