Charlotte... Hey.
I saw that you had plans for January. I won't try to illegitimize your wishes, but i want to offer some encouragement. We are all unique, no one is "normal." There is an agenda out there that promotes "normal" standards. If you don't fit their normal ideals, you feel like an outcast. Know what? Maybe we are outcasts. But if the majority are brain dead psychopaths, I'd much rather be an outcast. Our problem is that we are too real for this modern world.
I hope you see this as a strength, because the more people there are like you and me, the more we begin to influence the general consensus and wake people up. The world needs more people like you and me.
Don't give up on life just yet. Stick around and try to see things from a different perspective. Your life has just as much value as anyone else's