I'm vacillating between jumping and carbon monoxide poisoning....I am looking up how Conrad Roy killed himself and it feels more and more peaceful to me to just buy a generator on Amazon and hope for the best....only thing is I want to make sure I buy the right one. I've never used these things before...... how do I do it ?!?!? I'm so tired of the nothingness I've become, I have complex PTSD and even after medication and tons of help I just can't get over the identity loss I've experienced of being degraded and taken advantage of .... I feel humiliated and it's hard to interact with others because of mild Aspergers ....even my own family has gotten to the point where I think they'd be happier if I was dead, they've even joked about it..... I just don't have much left to live for and I can't stop the thoughts everyday of wanting to commit suicide, the only problem now is that I am too chicken to jump from the new river gorge, even as I drive there now.... it's just too scary, and I know I will hestirsre (still going though ?? Cause I'm dumb ???) please, I need help figuring this out because my anxious mind is sons scatterbrained even the simplest tasks are hard after a traumatic brain injury I received m..... have mercy on my poor soul that is just too weak to deal with this world.
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