NearlyIrrelevantCake
The Cake Is A Lie
- Aug 12, 2021
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A few months ago, my best friend J asked me to warn them when I'll be using [cannabis]. They said I'm "different" when I'm high.
Other friends I mentioned that to said I'm still "the same Gary [name changed] as always" when I'm high.
I've thought about J's words pretty much every day since. Even during weeks-long T-breaks [part of my usual schedule, that wasn't changed because of J].
I don't want to quit or reduce my usage. I never felt bad about using for years until what J said. But now since J said that to me, I feel emotionally like shit most times that I use. I just avoid interacting with J entirely when I'm high, so I don't have to tell them day after day after day that I'm using...
Other friends I mentioned that to said I'm still "the same Gary [name changed] as always" when I'm high.
I've thought about J's words pretty much every day since. Even during weeks-long T-breaks [part of my usual schedule, that wasn't changed because of J].
I don't want to quit or reduce my usage. I never felt bad about using for years until what J said. But now since J said that to me, I feel emotionally like shit most times that I use. I just avoid interacting with J entirely when I'm high, so I don't have to tell them day after day after day that I'm using...