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Michael_the_ratman
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- Jul 20, 2024
- 6
I know HRT (hormone replacement therapy) can help me but I have a very good physique for a girl. If I take HRT no one will want me anymore because I won't fully be a girl anymore and I will never be 100% a real guy. Most gay men won't date a trans guy, like only 11,55%. Yeah, I can get a fake D but like... I want a real one not one that doesn't even work well. I don't want scars on my chest. I don't want wide hips. I don't wanna be short.
There's also the social aspects, people hate you for it. They think being trans is a choice, that you're sick in the head, that you'll go to hell... Some will want to kill you for it, infact I feel so unsafe. Transphobia is on the rise and I'm scared that someone will hurt me. In my college, people see me as the weird kid, I struggle to make friends. I can't be friends with most people because I'm scared that they will be transphobe or I know they are. I have lots of religious friends and they treat me so baddly because of it. I feel like no one can ever understand me, I always feel like an outcast...
I wish people tried to understand. I just want to be a cis man, to have a normal life, not any of this. At this point I don't care anymore, I would be happy to wake up one day and realise I'm happy living my life as a wowan. I feel like CTB is my only escape from all this. I just hope that I'll wake up as a cis man in my next life.
There's also the social aspects, people hate you for it. They think being trans is a choice, that you're sick in the head, that you'll go to hell... Some will want to kill you for it, infact I feel so unsafe. Transphobia is on the rise and I'm scared that someone will hurt me. In my college, people see me as the weird kid, I struggle to make friends. I can't be friends with most people because I'm scared that they will be transphobe or I know they are. I have lots of religious friends and they treat me so baddly because of it. I feel like no one can ever understand me, I always feel like an outcast...
I wish people tried to understand. I just want to be a cis man, to have a normal life, not any of this. At this point I don't care anymore, I would be happy to wake up one day and realise I'm happy living my life as a wowan. I feel like CTB is my only escape from all this. I just hope that I'll wake up as a cis man in my next life.