Being in the third world

[Amarnd]

I just hate being in the third world and being financially incapable. I suffer from mental problems that I can't really divulge to others because they won't understand and so I'm completely alone.

People are confused and they scold me because I avoid work and study and yea I just endure it while also suffering mentally. Effectively I'm in solitary confinement. I'm now 20 and I think I have overstayed my welcome where I am residing rn. I wanna or rather I feel I must leave. I resort to begging just to secure some dollars and counting on the pity of other humans is no way to live.. I just can't anymore with this powerlessness.

My life has been wasted, I grew up liking hollywood films but it's a life I'm deprived of. I don't know anyone irl and never really did tbh. I can't be friends with locals as I struggle in my interactions with them and I feel we are not alike. I really have no desire to be with them too as I can't be myself with them. I wanna leave where I am rn but I have no means. I'm just worthless. I can't work I won't study no social life living in conditions that I dislike.

why the fuck did it have to be like this to me

 

[cheaptrick]

Life is so painful and arbitrary. I know it's possible to correct situations like this but it's a Herculean task to say the least.

 

[itwillhappensoon]

I can relate to this , I'm 27 mentally ill person and because of my mental illness (schizophrenia) I can't keep a job and I'm poor and feel worthless also I live in shithole country where even normal people are unemployed , I feel suicide or death is the only escape for me , if only I could find a good rope , my country is such a bad place even a 12 mm polyester rope is hard to find , sorry for the rant

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

I feel you man, I am also stuck in this crappy shithole Islamic country with no hope of escaping it.

 

[Gangrel]

I'm also in the third world, mine is not so bad at least, it's a calm life, i can buy stuff because i got a job but it's still so expensive so i have to save a lot. Only good thing is no natural disasters. My current partner lives in the first world and i am so envious of them.