411esme
Member
- Jun 5, 2020
- 15
"If you kill yourself, you just pass your pain onto others".
I'm told this over and over and over again. It comes up nearly every time I discuss the possibility of suicide.
Your family would never recover. Your friends would feel pain. Why would you choose to do something so selfish?
Yes, suicide has a ripple effect. Things will become invariably worse for the people close to me. I acknowledge that people would mourn.
The fallout from suicide is horrendous. I've experienced it myself. Nothing is the same in the wake of it. I know.
But my pain still remains, in spite of this.
Suicide is selfish? Maybe so.
But it's selfish of others to ask me to remain when I have been in pain for nearly a decade with no recourse. It's selfish of others to refuse to acknowledge that, as a human, I have bodily autonomy, my own free will, that my life is mine and mine alone, and I have the right to end it whenever I so choose. I refuse to live in near agony, with no treatment having ever helped, with no end in sight, no sign that things will get better - I refuse to subject myself to a miserable existence solely because the people around me are uncomfortable with the idea that they will have to mourn, dust themselves off, and then move on.
My life is not yours. I am not the family dog that you can put off euthanizing. I refuse to stay wallowing in pain solely for your benefit.
I'm told this over and over and over again. It comes up nearly every time I discuss the possibility of suicide.
Your family would never recover. Your friends would feel pain. Why would you choose to do something so selfish?
Yes, suicide has a ripple effect. Things will become invariably worse for the people close to me. I acknowledge that people would mourn.
The fallout from suicide is horrendous. I've experienced it myself. Nothing is the same in the wake of it. I know.
But my pain still remains, in spite of this.
Suicide is selfish? Maybe so.
But it's selfish of others to ask me to remain when I have been in pain for nearly a decade with no recourse. It's selfish of others to refuse to acknowledge that, as a human, I have bodily autonomy, my own free will, that my life is mine and mine alone, and I have the right to end it whenever I so choose. I refuse to live in near agony, with no treatment having ever helped, with no end in sight, no sign that things will get better - I refuse to subject myself to a miserable existence solely because the people around me are uncomfortable with the idea that they will have to mourn, dust themselves off, and then move on.
My life is not yours. I am not the family dog that you can put off euthanizing. I refuse to stay wallowing in pain solely for your benefit.