I don't want to die, but I have nothing to be ashamed of, I've simply lost control over my life, I'm very dependent on other people and the administration doesn't care to help me become more self-sufficient.
If I took medication, which I don't take, it wouldn't solve any problem by itself, I lack many resources that I will never be able to reach.
If I won the lottery it wouldn't help either, because I lack a lot of skills and abilities that wouldn't come out of nowhere no matter how much money I had.
I don't want to die, but it's been a long time since I stopped having the opportunity to live the way I wanted.. and it wears me down a lot mentally.
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No vull morir, però no tinc res de que avergonyir-me, simplement he deixat de tenir control sobre la meva vida, depenc molt d'altres persones i l'administració no es preocupa d'ajudar-me a conseguir mes autosuficéncia.
Si prengués medicació, que no prenc, no resoldría cap problema per si sol, em falten molts recursos que no seré capaç d'assolir mai.
Si em toqués la lotería tampoc serviría de rés, perquè em manquen moltes habilitats i capacitats que no resorgirien del no res per molts diners que tingués.
No vull morir, però fa temps que vaig deixar de tenir l'oportunitat de viure com vulgués.. i això desgasta molt mentalment.