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death will be my ultimate bliss
- Oct 29, 2023
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The first worst curse ever is being a human with immortality. I acknowledge that many people love being a human but I'm talking about myself as this is my vent post. For me, being a human is the second worst curse ever for many reasons. It's obvious that I'm not meant to be a human as I suffer a lot due to it.
Being a human comes with many challenges and responsibilities. For some reason that's unfathomable to me, many people love challenges and hardship. However, in my case, I don't love challenges and hardship. I want an easy and stress free life. What makes being a human such a massive curse to me is that humans are forced to go through challenges and hardship whether they want to or not. There's genuinely no way out of it. The only way to not have to deal with challenges any more is via death but, since death is so regulated, suicide has a lot of challenges to it as well.
Additionally, I'm perpetually consumed by boredom and I also blame this to me being a human. I also have apathy and anhedonia meaning that I don't enjoy anything. I would enjoy things more if I wasn't a human and if I was free. Being a human is like being a prisoner trapped in chains.
Me being human also means that I'm subject to random chance of developing extreme suffering. It's entirely possible that, out of nowhere, I develop an excruciating, painful chronic health condition which increases my pain exponentially. Actually, one thing I hate about being a human is that humans feel a lot of pain. I'm no different. I feel mental pain whenever I'm forced to go through any challenges or hardship. It's just so unfair. I was born against my consent and I'm expected to do things that I don't want to do or to survive for as long as possible even though death is inevitable anyway.
Dealing with other humans also makes me hate that I'm a human. Most humans are shitty and aren't dealing with imo. I don't see anything good about other humans as they all would exploit me for their own gain if they could. It's just how humans operate as we're all self serving at the end of the day. I also don't see any joy in socialising and talking to others. I'd rather stay alone and solitary but the fact that I can't due to being forced to socialise makes me so miserable.
I will never understand people's love for being human because I think that, barring immortality, it's the worst curse ever
Being a human comes with many challenges and responsibilities. For some reason that's unfathomable to me, many people love challenges and hardship. However, in my case, I don't love challenges and hardship. I want an easy and stress free life. What makes being a human such a massive curse to me is that humans are forced to go through challenges and hardship whether they want to or not. There's genuinely no way out of it. The only way to not have to deal with challenges any more is via death but, since death is so regulated, suicide has a lot of challenges to it as well.
Additionally, I'm perpetually consumed by boredom and I also blame this to me being a human. I also have apathy and anhedonia meaning that I don't enjoy anything. I would enjoy things more if I wasn't a human and if I was free. Being a human is like being a prisoner trapped in chains.
Me being human also means that I'm subject to random chance of developing extreme suffering. It's entirely possible that, out of nowhere, I develop an excruciating, painful chronic health condition which increases my pain exponentially. Actually, one thing I hate about being a human is that humans feel a lot of pain. I'm no different. I feel mental pain whenever I'm forced to go through any challenges or hardship. It's just so unfair. I was born against my consent and I'm expected to do things that I don't want to do or to survive for as long as possible even though death is inevitable anyway.
Dealing with other humans also makes me hate that I'm a human. Most humans are shitty and aren't dealing with imo. I don't see anything good about other humans as they all would exploit me for their own gain if they could. It's just how humans operate as we're all self serving at the end of the day. I also don't see any joy in socialising and talking to others. I'd rather stay alone and solitary but the fact that I can't due to being forced to socialise makes me so miserable.
I will never understand people's love for being human because I think that, barring immortality, it's the worst curse ever