Isisnefert
Student
- Mar 17, 2020
- 193
For a year I have had suicidal thoughts, in March 2020 I was very close, but I asked my doctor for help, who almost cut me off (hospital admission) months later I thought I had recovered. but it was only an illusion, a short time later I was suicidal again but without making the decision completely. Now yes, I have it clear, I want ctb, the problem that I have no means, I have been close to ordering SN, I do not have much information about whether it is legal or not, in my country. I think they only manage companies, I found it online. I am afraid to order it and that the police intervene and they section me. I only have one method left, jump, I have access to the 11th floor of a building and a bridge of approximately 30 meters.But first I have to sign the last will documents at a notary's office. if I could get SN I would feel much calmer, my heart is at 1000, I can't handle panic attacks and anxiety, the doctors didn't help me at all. sorry for my bad English one more time.