Help before i CTB should i leave my boyfriend?

[elliestxttoo]

My bf has known for years about me wanting to CTB, normally its all talk but these past few months ive been serious. im writing my letters and begging my boyfriend to not beg me to stay. when i bring it up all he does is beg me to stay and live my future life with him. i cannot do it though, it pains me to leave him (any ways to get over the pain of leaving him after i CTB?). i also do not want to leave him romantically before i CTB but it seems the best as it will only hurt him and all he does is beg me to stay.

i do not want him to beg me to stay as it makes me feel horrible about CTB, i want him to be in support that im going to be pain free and not hurt anymore. what should i do?

 

[Worndown]

If you try to break up with him, he will know why. If you do not ctb for a year or so, he could just move on.
A good letter to him would help. Say all those things he needs to hear.
There is no easy way.

 

[elliestxttoo]

If you try to break up with him, he will know why. If you do not ctb for a year or so, he could just move on.
A good letter to him would help. Say all those things he needs to hear.
There is no easy way.

thank you, im writing him a long note explaining everything and nothing is his fault. also writing that im sending him stuff that i want him to have before i go.

 

[kettlevinbarq]

When I told my husband I was going to ctb I said: I'm going to do it regardless. Do you want to spend our last moments arguing and upset or live life to the fullest and do fun things together and have good lasting memories? He picked the latter right away.

 

[IWishToDie]

My bf has known for years about me wanting to CTB, normally its all talk but these past few months ive been serious. im writing my letters and begging my boyfriend to not beg me to stay. when i bring it up all he does is beg me to stay and live my future life with him. i cannot do it though, it pains me to leave him (any ways to get over the pain of leaving him after i CTB?). i also do not want to leave him romantically before i CTB but it seems the best as it will only hurt him and all he does is beg me to stay.

i do not want him to beg me to stay as it makes me feel horrible about CTB, i want him to be in support that im going to be pain free and not hurt anymore. what should i do?

There's no real answer here, they will be devastated no matter what. Why exactly do you wish to die? That would be helpful for others to know so we can figure out the best course of action. Best of luck, whatever you choose.

 

[Argo]

If I were in your position I would not break up with my significant other. What's the need for it? CTB will break you apart anyway. If you don't care for him then that's another story. But again if I were in your shoes, and I was certain about what I want, then I would just write my heart out towards them before going and hope they understand. Write as clearly as possible and under the full awareness that if they have feelings for you, this will cause them emotional wounds, possibly for life. Try your best to be compassionate towards them just as you wish people would be compassionate and understanding towards you in your decision. Best of luck