maggot666
Member
- Aug 23, 2019
- 43
So turned up unannounced where my ex is staying he was out but there was a girl I know sitting on his bed and she stayed over after begging him he told me he really likes her he only ended it with me Saturday I left to go ctb but I was in pieces like sobbing I tried to get myself together but it hurts so fucking bad a couple stopped me to ask if I was ok I said yeah trying to compose myself so they said no you are not, at this stage they physically tried to stop me from walking on and then another 2 people did. One was making calls police turned up they detained me under section 136 then I was assessed in mental hospital near where I live they told me I can voluntarily could admit myself or I will be sectioned for 28 days so really they are giving me no choice they have moved me to another town over an hour away. I am devastated I can't deal with the pain emotionally I mean I am broken I'm trying to blag my way but I don't think it's working. I got like 8 houses away from the train crossing that is the biggest blow I know suicide by train is bad it is not my main choice but I need to go so whilst I'm here I'm going to study up on partial hanging I need to find my carotid artery see if I can make me nearly black out. There is a bed sheet and blanket in here could I get it to work but make it like I am lying down sleeping just in case I can't leave in the next few days. There's no lock on the door to my room and there's a window on the door.