menherachan
馬鹿野郎
- Jun 22, 2020
- 58
Hey all it's been so long and so much has happened that I'll probably never ever get over it. I was searching for love and thought I had found the perfect person for me, kind caring and would always ask me if I was ok, but then stuff started going downhill fast..first he'd call me an annoying bitch whenever I'd ask if he was ok, then slapped me whenever I would deny him sex (I hate sex so much) then he just stopped asking and did it anyway. He assault me many times a day almost ten times and I'd cry and scream for help but no one ever cared enough to do anything. I got pregnant and I was so miserable because I didn't have access to abortion care so I just starved myself until blood was leaking out of me. I don't feel remorse but at the same time it kills me that I killed that thing that creature. The creature made of kerosene bottles and intestines follows me everywhere now.
That should have been the end but no it isn't, at my job my co workers found out and started calling me a slut and that I'll "open my legs for anyone" i told HR I told my manager, but then a team lead threw a god damn metal pan at my face and left a decent mark.. I was always blamed. It's her fault never ours she's the slut.. she's an attention whore, I lost all the friends I had and now I have nothing, I'm about to be evicted from my apartment because I don't make enough hours because of the bullying everyday and I'm in low income housing.. And the icing on the cake I got into a massive car wreck yesterday. The car I use to get to work. It's 20k to fix.
I have no one and no family. I have nothing. I feel miserable and have to act happy all the time so people don't raise suspicion but I'm so tired of this fuck ass world. I lost my god damn left eye for Christ sakes Because of my ex and everyday is so painful.. god I hate it I hate it. I want to annihilate myself.
That should have been the end but no it isn't, at my job my co workers found out and started calling me a slut and that I'll "open my legs for anyone" i told HR I told my manager, but then a team lead threw a god damn metal pan at my face and left a decent mark.. I was always blamed. It's her fault never ours she's the slut.. she's an attention whore, I lost all the friends I had and now I have nothing, I'm about to be evicted from my apartment because I don't make enough hours because of the bullying everyday and I'm in low income housing.. And the icing on the cake I got into a massive car wreck yesterday. The car I use to get to work. It's 20k to fix.
I have no one and no family. I have nothing. I feel miserable and have to act happy all the time so people don't raise suspicion but I'm so tired of this fuck ass world. I lost my god damn left eye for Christ sakes Because of my ex and everyday is so painful.. god I hate it I hate it. I want to annihilate myself.
