Been a year since i quit my job and almost killed myself

[CatLove56]

Actually I almost shot myself in December but it's close enough. This time of the year makes me depressed and in a way nostalgic for what I almost did. Could have just pulled the trigger and all my problems would be gone.

I remember quitting my shitty janitor job at 2 in the morning-only had it for two months- (shift ends at 5) I was in shock for what I just did and gave myself a week to enjoy my hobbies before I did it. That night came, I felt sad/relieved and went to buy alcohol on a sunday to hopefully make this easier. Can't do that in my state though.

So I screamed, cried and all that and bitched to someone on the hotline who was completely useless. Went home and slept for 15 hours. Told parents (I'm 22) that I quit, couldn't take it but never told them about my intentions. They were mad but they understood.

Been a year and no, it hasn't gotten better. Some days are better than others but now almost one year later walmart is wanting to hire me so I'm going back into the workforce tomorrow. I remember telling the ss on reddit about my new slave job so as is tradition lol

That cold and lonely feeling is starting to come back but I guess I'll just keep trudging on like the rest of the slaves until that revolution comes.

 

[CJM]

Good work on getting a job though, a job is a job.

 

[CatLove56]

Good work on getting a job though, a job is a job.

everyone's so proud of me lol they must be desperate they hired me the same day. Babbled like an idiot and don't have much confident anymore so that's hard to fake. I'll try not to fuck it up but almost every day their is a car accident in my city and I just wish that would be me.

 

[CJM]

everyone's so proud of me lol they must be desperate they hired me the same day. Babbled like an idiot and don't have much confident anymore so that's hard to fake. I'll try not to fuck it up but almost every day their is a car accident in my city and I just wish that would be me.

So you winged your interview and got the job? That's actually a good skill.
As for the car accident, I dunno man, I always thought a car accident would be a yuck way to go.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

As biological mechanical machines, our internal programming tells us to kill ourselves without work. It's built in, some call it mental illness, ever notice all treatment is focused on getting you back to work? Good luck with the new job though hope it all works out.