M19R
Member
- Aug 12, 2024
- 15
Hey everyone, wish it was better news but apparently i just cant have that yeah?
My best friend moved in the girlfriend who hates me. Didnt even tell anyone she was doing it and suddenly she just lives here now. That was probably about a little over a month ago now and everything is so much worse. Ive been in more physical pain too. My mom and one of my roommates think it might be fibro + arthritis but i haven't been able to force myself to make any appointments for testing. Im only 24.
At this point ive got bullets with no gun. I feel like hypocrite because i have them from my ex when she opened up to me about her struggles with all this. We agreed to have me hold onto them in my lockbox because shes getting better and having keeping them felt bad for her. I dont suppose there's any way out with just the bullets though is there?
So right now im just sitting here, feeling so fucking useless, i cant even make plans to get the wrapping paper i need for gifts today. My best friend wants to make plans with me and her dad but i dont know if anything is worth it anymore. It feels like a weird place to end things though, unbalanced. There's so many unfinished tasks. The plans for today that i cant follow through on, there's even a prescription waiting for me at the pharmacy. Would they know whu i wasn't picking it up if i died?
My best friend moved in the girlfriend who hates me. Didnt even tell anyone she was doing it and suddenly she just lives here now. That was probably about a little over a month ago now and everything is so much worse. Ive been in more physical pain too. My mom and one of my roommates think it might be fibro + arthritis but i haven't been able to force myself to make any appointments for testing. Im only 24.
At this point ive got bullets with no gun. I feel like hypocrite because i have them from my ex when she opened up to me about her struggles with all this. We agreed to have me hold onto them in my lockbox because shes getting better and having keeping them felt bad for her. I dont suppose there's any way out with just the bullets though is there?
So right now im just sitting here, feeling so fucking useless, i cant even make plans to get the wrapping paper i need for gifts today. My best friend wants to make plans with me and her dad but i dont know if anything is worth it anymore. It feels like a weird place to end things though, unbalanced. There's so many unfinished tasks. The plans for today that i cant follow through on, there's even a prescription waiting for me at the pharmacy. Would they know whu i wasn't picking it up if i died?
