Discussion Becoming an addict before ctb

[angelofdeath1]

I have tried oxycodone a few times never got addicted though. But it was definitely one of the best highs I've ever experienced from all the substances I've done. I'm thinking of just becoming an addict. Slowly and hopefully eventually od within 6 months. I'll quickly jump to the needle once I get quite a good tolerance so it'd be very easy.

Is this a bad idea or what?

 

[jodes2]

Probably

 

[absolomonisgone]

Good idea when decide to dead no worry what you do you can do anything no future to worry of

 

[sadDaysAhead]

i would be a lair if i said i havent thought about this idea myself

 

[valkyrie]

If you're going to CTB either way and you can afford it, I think why not do a ton of drugs to make life more tolerable?
It could extend your lifespan for a while.

 

[It'sNotLookingGood]

Terrible idea. I'm addicted to opioids and benzos (etc. etc.) and moved from very actively suicidal, to passively suicidal. Something that will probably happen to you too. And now I'm fucked.

I used to think fuck it, I'm gonna die anyway, so idk. I'll do whatever, however many, drugs I want. Idk about living. But now, death looks more like a slow decline over decades, than an instantaneous dulling of the light.

If by any chance you don't end up killing yourself - you just fucked your life. You just redfined your perception of happiness. That's most terrifying bit. For me anyway...