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God
- Jun 18, 2018
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I made a post recently about whether I should become religious or ctb. Well, I recently started attending daily mass. I've done 2 days and it's already soul-crushing. I haven't converted but I feel so alone when I'm sitting in the church. It's physically painful. Also the act of putting on a suit each day and leaving at the same time just drives the knife in deeper, I hate monotony. No wonder I always lose jobs.
The only interaction with others is saying "peace be with you." It's empty and meaningless.
I still don't want to die but life is torture. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.
The only interaction with others is saying "peace be with you." It's empty and meaningless.
I still don't want to die but life is torture. I feel like I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place.