• Hey Guest,

    We will never comply with any of OFCOM's demands or any other nations censorious demands for that matter. We will only follow the laws of the land of which our server is located, which is the US.

    Any demands for censorship or requests to comply with the law outside of the US will be promptly ignored.

    No foreign laws or pressure will make us comply with anti-censorship laws and we will protect the speech of our members, regardless of where they might live in the world. If that means being blocked in the UK, so be it. We would advise that any UK member gets a VPN to browse the site, or use TOR.

    However, today, we stand up these these governments that want to bully or censor this website.

    Fuck OFCOM, and fuck any media organization or group that think it's cool or fun to stalk or bully people that suffering in this world.

    Edit: We also wanted to address the veiled threats made against a staff member in the UK by the BBC in the news today. We are undeterred by any threats, intimination, by the BBC or by any other groups dedicated to doxxing and harassing our staff and members. Journalists from the BBC, CTV, Kansas Star, Daily Mail and many other outlets have continuiously ignored the fact that many of the people that they're interviewing (such as @leelfc84 on Twitter/X) and propping up are the same people posting addresses of staff members and our founders on social media. We show them proof of this and they ignore it and don't address it.They're all just as evil as each other, and should be treated accordingly. They do not care about the safety of our staff members, founders, or administrators, or even members, so why would they care about you?

    Now that we have your attention, journalists, will you ever address this? You've given these evil people interviews, and free press.

Ramsay Fiction

Ramsay Fiction

Soulburner
Aug 15, 2024
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I've been in a dark place mentally for a very long time. It was around 10-12 I realized I was "depressed", but my behavioral issues developed way before that. I just didn't understand.

At that age and through my teenage years it was easy enough to romanticize suicide. It was pretty normal among teenagers to begin with, being as edgy as we were. Dying was just something I'd pray would happen, and saying I deserved it was just natural.

As I've gotten older it felt less like a fantasy and more of a reality. The idea of ctb felt more and more in reach. The very thought was as mundane as anything else. To-do list: Wake up, take a shower, eat lunch (maybe), catch the bus. Sometimes I felt so on auto-pilot that I'd realize what I was thinking about and it would snap me back to reality. It's all blurry, run together. Like a dream. And the line has only smudged further being in a place like this, surrounded by people who are more like me than anyone "normal" ever could be.

Sometimes things are more okay. Something about my personality makes me fiery, malleable, and stubborn. But then there's a lot of times where my blood feels like soured milk. I burn hot. I am affectionate, loud. I am animated, I am lively. I am one of a kind. But the energy is for nothing. It's annoying, it's overbearing. I can love so much and even if I can say I love myself, it's for naught. Because I just burn, and eventually I fizzle out.

In my most vulnerable moments I find myself alone. I reach out to the people I trust the most, and there's silence. Maybe I prefer it that way.

Unfortunately I don't seem to break, I just bend instead. I want nothing more than the ability to give up. I want to just give up.
 
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