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Polly

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Jan 15, 2020
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Feels like everything is at risk or going wrong. Enormous sense of impending doom

My best guess right now is that 50% of that is real and the rest is anxiety.

But all of it has me jumping out if my skin
 
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LMLN

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Aug 10, 2019
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I'm so sorry :(. I hate that feeling of jumping out of my skin. I've had a very bad day myself.
People who have not experienced this do not understand suicidal feelings at all. I'm so sorry. We understand here. We are here to listen . ❤ I hope you can find some peace today.
 
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Supersadmommy90

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Sep 24, 2019
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I'm sorry you feel this way. I've had a bad week myself, horrid anxiety, want to jump in front of a train but don't have the follow-through, but just have been feeling horrible dread and fearing the worst.
 
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The Warm Industry

The Warm Industry

It's still raining, up here
Jan 26, 2020
52
We can't have a rainbow without a rain.

Even if it's a non-stop rain that drags everything you love away, you'll somehow get a rainbow after this. For all it's worth, I'm sorry you have to feel that way.
 
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mesohappy

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Jan 10, 2020
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Feels like everything is at risk or going wrong. Enormous sense of impending doom

My best guess right now is that 50% of that is real and the rest is anxiety.

But all of it has me jumping out if my skin
Anxiety sucks ass..I was suffering from it real bad for awhile there.Thoughts of letting everything go including my own life seem to have comforted it.If I start caring again I know that it will come back with a vengeance.I guess Im just doomed.Sorry you are having a bad day.Maybe have a shot of liquor or go for a walk might help.
 
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ladolcemorte

ladolcemorte

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May 5, 2019
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I can relate. I just feel awful and cant decide what to do. And so alone. Just so desperately and terribly and achingly alone.
 
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Polly

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Jan 15, 2020
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We can't have a rainbow without a rain.

Even if it's a non-stop rain that drags everything you love away, you'll somehow get a rainbow after this. For all it's worth, I'm sorry you have to feel that way.
Thank you for your intent.

I personally don't find the "roses will follow the rain" sentiment as terribly helpful since so very often they haven't.

But I appreciate your good thoughts.
 
purplemoon

purplemoon

I Have the Light Inside, Surrounded by Darkness
Sep 22, 2019
394
I often contemplate if we were even meant to live like this, and this material constructed sub reality within the greater reality of nature. Tear down all the buildings, take away all the machines, and what do you have left?, Pure nature.

It's this human-created sub reality, in my opinion, that makes everything massively overwhelming and exhausting.

In nature, you're either killed and eaten, injured and eaten, or you got to run away and hide. Instead it's nearly continuous potential threats ... of car accident injuries, road rage, bullying by coworkers, creeps that are your neighbor you cannot avoid, the looming threat of financial ruin because everyone is allowed to raise the rents for greed, with very few safety nets.

That's simply not a natural level of stress, and it's likely part of why so many people have anxiety/depression.

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They need to stop labeling people as if they have a "mental disorder", and they need to recognize that if most people actually had the opposite environment that was stable, safe, and more calm,
I bet much of their anxiety or depression would start getting better. Maybe not everyone in all circumstances, but many.

in this human-constructed reality of long hours with little relief, most of the time you're forced to be out and about amongst groups crowds of people you don't necessarily want to be around, but you cannot get away from them, in order to make this damn thing they call money, so that you're not homeless.

It's mostly other humans that I fear, not mountain lions or grizzly bears.



I don't think we are designed to endure this type of continuous ongoing pressure, mixed in with other layers of even more pressure, putting demands on our physical body, our brain, our nervous (neurological) system...

starving our other needs...?

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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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I hope your day gets better for you. Is there anything we can eat or drink or do that makes you feel good? Sometimes even a little bit of pleasure on a bad day can make a difference.
 
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BPD Barbie

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Dec 1, 2019
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We all have those days, write it off, start fresh again tomorrow. Sending love ❤️
 
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Polly

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Jan 15, 2020
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I hope your day gets better for you. Is there anything we can eat or drink or do that makes you feel good? Sometimes even a little bit of pleasure on a bad day can make a difference.
Yeah I already drowned my sorrows in a huge burger and fries. The real stuff. With mayo. :-)
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
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Yeah I already drowned my sorrows in a huge burger and fries. The real stuff. With mayo. :-)
Rare? Lettuce, tomato, onion and a pickle? Cheese?
 
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Hopeindeath!

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Dec 7, 2019
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I feel for you as anxiety can really be debilitating. I hope it gets better for you.
 
Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
I never used to understand what anxiety was, had heard of it but never understood it, It's only of recent times that I realise it's something I do get, and potentially have done for year's, but as it's a sensation I am so used too I just thought it was normal. Its a bitch for sure!!
No light at the end of the tunnel shit for me as I keep getting told, as you never know when it's going to show up and pay you a visit without warning!!!
 
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randomz

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Nov 4, 2019
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I never used to understand what anxiety was, had heard of it but never understood it, It's only of recent times that I realise it's something I do get, and potentially have done for year's, but as it's a sensation I am so used too I just thought it was normal. Its a bitch for sure!!
No light at the end of the tunnel shit for me as I keep getting told, as you never know when it's going to show up and pay you a visit without warning!!!

This. I live my enire life thinking that the overwhelming levels of anxiety I get are just me overreacting stuff that's happening.

As for @Polly - I hope you got better, and don't have such bad days anymore (or at leas anytime soon). I live with extreme anxiety and depression working a depressive and taxing job at which I am having a lot of bad days. The most recent one was friday for that matter - I don't know how I lived through that day.
 
EndItNorth

EndItNorth

Member
Jan 17, 2020
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Anxiety is horrible. For someone who has never dealt with not knowing what is real and not real more than 50% of time, you have no idea how debilitating it can be to be. You're on red-alert, trying to be mentally or physically prepared for disaster and/or being scared all of the time. All of this is to say, I can relate.
 
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I know that feeling. When you are under threat and permanently on red-alert. Hyper-aware of every little thing. In a way it makes you more perceptive and gives you a clearer picture of just how terrifying life actually is without the little delusions that we try to hold up to life to cope with it. Still, I'd rather be delusional and happy.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
Since recognising it as anxiety, One thing I struggle with is other peoples mindsets towards it.
Those not dealing with it, simply have no comprehension that what they see as a small step, to us can be frightening, our mind starts playing games and meltdown can often happen
I get fed up of the *it's only going outside* or why are you shaking it's not that bad...
Yes in your mind it may not be, but to mine, which works differently to your's its a situation I don't want to be in.
I just ask for understanding, it frustrates me, as I am expected to understand a normal person and how they are reacting, but for them to begin to understand this world is just not happening, its' their way or no way/
 

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