TheLastGreySky
Wizard
- Nov 24, 2023
- 651
So for anyone who remembers me, I was posting a lot last year. Recently I've had a lot of huge changes and I'm currently back on recovery.
In 2024 I was dealing with loneliness and sex addiction trying to numb the pain of not having my children. My ex wife had painted this picture of me as this monster because I went to prison due to my own stupidity years prior. Well she ended up being exposed and relinquished all rights to my children, So currently I am the only legal parent.
My girlfriend and I that I've been dating since December of last year got married a couple of weeks back and is the best support for me.
I have since also beaten my second legal case and avoided prison. So I am finally able to start my life.
I'm going to start therapy back up. After having taken a psilocybin mushroom trip I realized I have not been good to myself and that I was subconsciously carrying around all this anxiousness and weight that was suffocating me. I do not know if therapy will be beneficial but I do know that it's hard to critique someone for pursuing self improvement so I think at the very least it would be a wise investment. I'm currently dealing with a extremely toxic supervisor for my kids' case but regardless I have a lot to be happy for.
God truly has been amazing towards me and I wish I saw it sooner. There were many years I actually struggled with the idea of the possibility of a loving God creating such a world as the one we live in, but very recently I have seen a lot of compassion that almost makes the past to this point seem like a bad dream. So I'm going to fight for my kids to come home with the best of my ability while doing my best to have faith in God.
Thank you for reading, and I just wanted to take a moment to appreciate all you.
I've been at the bottom before crying my eyes out, honestly scared shitless and just wanting all the pain I was feeling to end. I just hope everyone knows that even when it seems hopeless, a good out loud self talk and a conversation with God can really change your perspective on things. I know it might seem down playing whatever you're going through but I didn't want to litter this post with visuals of practicing partial suspension or how pathetic I must of looked as a grown man in his 30s crying on the shower floor over his own mistakes.
I can't speak for you and what you're going through but I know what it's like to of spent the last few years running on empty. So if you're in recovery please don't give up on yourself.
In 2024 I was dealing with loneliness and sex addiction trying to numb the pain of not having my children. My ex wife had painted this picture of me as this monster because I went to prison due to my own stupidity years prior. Well she ended up being exposed and relinquished all rights to my children, So currently I am the only legal parent.
My girlfriend and I that I've been dating since December of last year got married a couple of weeks back and is the best support for me.
I have since also beaten my second legal case and avoided prison. So I am finally able to start my life.
I'm going to start therapy back up. After having taken a psilocybin mushroom trip I realized I have not been good to myself and that I was subconsciously carrying around all this anxiousness and weight that was suffocating me. I do not know if therapy will be beneficial but I do know that it's hard to critique someone for pursuing self improvement so I think at the very least it would be a wise investment. I'm currently dealing with a extremely toxic supervisor for my kids' case but regardless I have a lot to be happy for.
God truly has been amazing towards me and I wish I saw it sooner. There were many years I actually struggled with the idea of the possibility of a loving God creating such a world as the one we live in, but very recently I have seen a lot of compassion that almost makes the past to this point seem like a bad dream. So I'm going to fight for my kids to come home with the best of my ability while doing my best to have faith in God.
Thank you for reading, and I just wanted to take a moment to appreciate all you.
I've been at the bottom before crying my eyes out, honestly scared shitless and just wanting all the pain I was feeling to end. I just hope everyone knows that even when it seems hopeless, a good out loud self talk and a conversation with God can really change your perspective on things. I know it might seem down playing whatever you're going through but I didn't want to litter this post with visuals of practicing partial suspension or how pathetic I must of looked as a grown man in his 30s crying on the shower floor over his own mistakes.
I can't speak for you and what you're going through but I know what it's like to of spent the last few years running on empty. So if you're in recovery please don't give up on yourself.
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