Back Again

[perpetualsomnolence]

So I joined this last June wanting to die. I was in hospital and almost sectioned. Things seemed to get better but as always, Im back feeling this way again. It never goes away and Im so sick of see-sawing between feeling fine (Actually mania so not good) and then slinking into a depression having to pick up the pieces from all the stupid shit I did manic. I think this time, it's really it, Im so fucking done

 

[F@#$]

Welcome back, you're among friends here.

 

[perpetualsomnolence]

Welcome back, you're among friends here.

There's a strange comfort in being back

 

[F@#$]

That's a good thing.

 

[steve021]

Yes, that ultimately drove me to enter the euthanasia process. Having depression, mania and psychosis is just a very unstable life. I was several times at the hospital myself, but at a certain point I was just done with it...... Now im just sitting at home waiting to die

 

[perpetualsomnolence]

Yes, that ultimately drove me to enter the euthanasia process. Having depression, mania and psychosis is just a very unstable life. I was several times at the hospital myself, but at a certain point I was just done with it...... Now im just sitting at home waiting to die

Literally. And everytime I try to have a normal' life my mental health just fucks it up. Had a proper full time job for all of 5 and a half months before it all got too much.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really tiring and dreadful what you've been through, existence is just too cruel. But anyway best wishes.

 

[roo]

i feel u, i've been off this site for almost a year but i just cant get out of the cycle

 

[Neverfeltdeader]

It's a vicious never-ending cycle.

 

[boddibo]

Welcome back, sorry you're feeling that way again

 

[perpetualsomnolence]

That must be really tiring and dreadful what you've been through, existence is just too cruel. But anyway best wishes.

It is. Thank you

 

[MyLuckyStars]

i think a good deal of other users can probably relate, its sort of unusual to hang around here for long periods of time like a social club. no shade to those who do, that's pretty much what i do also. anyways, welcome back

 

[perpetualsomnolence]

i think a good deal of other users can probably relate, its sort of unusual to hang around here for long periods of time like a social club. no shade to those who do, that's pretty much what i do also. anyways, welcome back

Im just glad I have a community of people who who understand

 

[logi3535]

i've seen you around on some posts and in the general chat, you seem really nice! it almost feels poetic how safe and connected people feel here on a forum dedicated to suicide and depression

 

[perpetualsomnolence]

i've seen you around on some posts and in the general chat, you seem really nice! it almost feels poetic how safe and connected people feel here on a forum dedicated to suicide and depression

Thank you!