TheHatedOne
Death is salvation
- Sep 26, 2021
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I hate that I woke up. I woke up and saw the outrageous shit like 2 minutes after. From the state of sleeping and not being aware and not experiencing suffering I woke up back into this hellish world and not even 2 minutes after the suffering already started.
I cried then I just stared into distance feeling a lot and having a lot of thoughts in my mind.
Then I did some house related stuff. At one point my whole body started to shake. I blamed it on not eating, I was feeling hungry but really couldn't bring myself to eat. It took me hours to finally do that.
Now here I am again staring into distance and also just started shaking again. I'm all hopeless and defeated.
I seriously think that its not by spring 2022 that I have to go, but sooner.
I cried then I just stared into distance feeling a lot and having a lot of thoughts in my mind.
Then I did some house related stuff. At one point my whole body started to shake. I blamed it on not eating, I was feeling hungry but really couldn't bring myself to eat. It took me hours to finally do that.
Now here I am again staring into distance and also just started shaking again. I'm all hopeless and defeated.
I seriously think that its not by spring 2022 that I have to go, but sooner.