Awaiting death

[beseechgod]

I'm already dead but my body keeps on breathing. Torturing me. I get no fulfillment out of anything so I'm just going to lay here until I die or someone forces me to move. Does time go by faster as you get older? In my experience it has but I hope it keeps accelerating. I'm only 26 so I have a long time to wait but that's ok. My room is my tomb and my bed my sarcophagus. It's peaceful to just accept this. I just have to get up and get food once in a while because I can't take the pain of starvation. I also have to continue taking my antidepressants every day so the mental pain can be as mild as possible. I have compassion for this long-suffering mind/body that I'm trapped in. It's just a scared creature that does what it can to avoid pain. It doesn't realize that continuing to live is torturing the soul stuck here with it. If only I could communicate with it, it would know death is the best option and simply shut itself down overnight. But unfortunately I'm unable to even communicate with my body enough to do things most people can let alone convince it to die. Maybe it will get the message eventually.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I can relate to your post. I suffer from major depressive disorder and I spend most of my days in bed. The episode I am in now has been over two years. I have no hope of getting better at this point and need to die. But i am a chicken shit. The pain is unbearable. BTW I am 55 years old and can vividly remember being 26. Life does seem to go by faster as you get older. I am so sorry for your suffering so young

 

[Darkover]

The sensation of time accelerating as you age is something many people notice, though it often feels slower in periods of struggle or isolation.
Time speeds up with increasing age because we have fewer new experiences and our perception is less vivid but for me time pass by very slowly due to being in a constant state of discomfort due to a brain injury

 

[beseechgod]

I can relate to your post. I suffer from major depressive disorder and I spend most of my days in bed. The episode I am in now has been over two years. I have no hope of getting better at this point and need to die. But i am a chicken shit. The pain is unbearable. BTW I am 55 years old and can vividly remember being 26. Life does seem to go by faster as you get older. I am so sorry for your suffering so young

I wish I was your age already so I would be closer to death. The years seem to stretch out before me. Please pray or manifest a quicker death for me.