What really brought me here was before in the past, I had struggles with thoughts of wishing I were dead and then on top of that, all the places except here (and even before this forum was created, it was Reddit's subreddit SS before Reddit went and banned the subreddit along with other similar ones.) have anti-suicide sentiments and attitudes. For a naive person it would almost be too easy to see that suicide prevention is a good thing, however, when it comes to people who are chronically suicidal and rationally considered suicide, it all didn't add up. I'm a deep thinker and I have a lot of introspection for myself (probably due to my autism and Aspergers, and just fyi, yes I was officially diagnosed with Aspergers when I was a teenager in HS.), so I started to question the status quo and somehow, I stumbled upon Reddit's r/SS before it got shutdown and then eventually I found solace on this platform, where it is free of censorship and also contains likeminded people, those who have already accepted that suicide is an option and possibly even going through with it. I'd say that I found some sense of belonging when I joined over a year ago, it was like I finally found people that I can be 100% honest about (barring personal details for safety and privacy) my suicidal ideation and also the best form of coping is here, not with the therapists or people IRL. In fact, even talking about death or suicide would only raise suspicions and invite unwanted attention and meddling into my life (making it even more uncomfortable due to lack of agency and privacy).
Furthermore, yes I agree with you that it is wrong and oftenly short sighted that people focus on only on suicide prevention and almost never the causes that push someone to want to consider suicide in the first place. The premise is that they believe that for anyone to consider suicide, regardless of circumstance is always irrational and that irrational people are UNABLE to make decisions for themselves. That's ironic since by that logic, we should excuse ALL criminals who commit crimes because they were irrational and thus can't be accountable, but of course, they don't think that way. Instead they think that if someone commits a crime then they are guilt as sin and should be dealt with accordingly. In fact, we treat suspected criminals a bit better than suicidal people which is even sadder. But those are different topics for other threads so I won't go too far on that tangent.
