BPDprisoner
Member
- Jul 4, 2018
- 8
Cleaned my room and now just have to write a note for my family. Then i will do factory resets on all my phones and tablets, and get my set up ready.
I can make my vision almost go black pressing on my carotid arteries...im going to use 2 or 3 scarfs on my inside doorknob of my closet, over the door, and give it a test. Once i know it will work i will take a couple xanax if i need to calm down.
Ive been trying to fight my suicidal thoughts for 8 years now, and in the past 3 years ive decided it is inevitable, but never get around to doing it. The fact i actually cleaned my stuff and got everything organized, and am now going to work on this note, and im not freaking out, makes me think the xanax may not even be necessary. We'll see though.
Any suggestions, take the xanax anyways? I know it won't help with dying. Worry ill fall asleep before i do it though (no tolerance anymorw, have been stockpiling for no good reason)
I can make my vision almost go black pressing on my carotid arteries...im going to use 2 or 3 scarfs on my inside doorknob of my closet, over the door, and give it a test. Once i know it will work i will take a couple xanax if i need to calm down.
Ive been trying to fight my suicidal thoughts for 8 years now, and in the past 3 years ive decided it is inevitable, but never get around to doing it. The fact i actually cleaned my stuff and got everything organized, and am now going to work on this note, and im not freaking out, makes me think the xanax may not even be necessary. We'll see though.
Any suggestions, take the xanax anyways? I know it won't help with dying. Worry ill fall asleep before i do it though (no tolerance anymorw, have been stockpiling for no good reason)