Attempting again

[sadsoul]

Hey everyone,

I wanted to let you know that I'm gonna attempt again tomorrow. I thought about not writing anything, but I don't want to leave you wondering about what happened to me. I might not be able to overcome the survival instinct, so maybe you'll see me again on the forum. But I really, really hope it works out this time.

I think I'm gonna stay up all night watching videos, listening to music and being on SS. I want to be really tired tomorrow, I hope this will weaken the survival instinct. CTB will be like going to sleep. Also, for those who don't know, my method is partial suspension.

Tomorrow morning I will go to school so that my parents don't get suspicious. After the first two lessons or so I will leave school and go for a walk. Then I'll go home (I'll be alone for a few hours) and maybe drink some alcohol. After that I will attempt and hopefully succeed.

I want to say thank you to everyone of you. Thank you so, so much. You don't know how much you mean to me, you lovely souls. I wish you all the best and I hope you find peace, eventually. <3

So that's it. I'm done with this horrible, uncaring world. There's so much pain. Being alive hurts so, so much. I'm broken and the only way I can find peace is by ending my suffering once and for all.

Goodbye, my friends.



PS: If there's an afterlife, I'm gonna be there waiting for you. <3

 

[worldexploder]

Hey man I wish you the best of luck. Don't be surprised if it doesn't work out. Like with me and many others, that panic response is often too strong using this method. Even when drunk or sleep deprived.

 

[Circles]

Damn why is everyone is leaving this week? I am so sorry for how life has turned out for you. I wish I got to know you more. I hope the other side will treat you more kindly friend.

 

[jaemus12]

Good luck and goodbye. I enjoyed your likes, comments and thoughts on this forum. I'll miss you.

I'll see you on the other side soon.

 

[TheLastTrip]

I hope it all goes to plan and you finally get your peace, save me a seat on the other side and we'll toast to your success!

 

[Toenditall]

Good luck hope you can find your peace I won't be far behind you my friend

 

[TiredHorse]

Fair winds and clear skies, Sadsoul! I'll miss having you around here. I hope the other side brings you the peace you long for.

And if it doesn't work out this time, come on back and we can commiserate.

 

[Dead Meat]

I want to wish you luck sadsoul,hope everything goes just the way you want. May you find eternal peace.

 

[DarkTear]

Oh no...

I don't know what to write. But it's OK, we wrote so much and you're such a wonderful person. You're the friend that I never had in real life. Do you remember when I told you that I can't cry anymore? I'm crying now.

I'll miss you so much. <3

If it doesn't work out tomorrow, I'm here for you.

 

[Retched]

I hope you find your peace.

 

[VanHeineken]

May you be successful in all your endeavours and may you find peace, my friend.

 

[Rose]

Hope you can find your peace
Appreciated your presence here since the first day I was on, and have been able to relate to you a lot (especially near the end of this post).
That said, good luck! Wishing you the best! I hope it works out for your sake, but if it doesn't, no shame in it. I'll be here a while more, myself.

 

[Eowyn]

Hope you will find your peace, @sadsoul
x

 

[ctoan]

whats your method of choice bro?

 

[Carlon55]

what method you gonna use?

 

[sadsoul]

whats your method of choice bro?

what method you gonna use?

Partial suspension

 

[LetMeDiePlease]

Good luck. Partial suspension is easier said than done, at least for me.

 

[Carlon55]

Partial suspension

but death will comes slowly with pain i guess

 

[Rose]

but death will comes slowly with pain i guess

Partial suspension, done right, can knock you out really quickly. The rest happens while you're unconscious.
The trick is figuring out how to do it right

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

I wish you only the best, sadsoul. I've really enjoyed reading your posts and responses on here. Hope with all of my heart that you find peace.

 

[Jen Erik]

Wish you well, sadsoul.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

You always struck me as the nicest dude. I'm sorry things turned out this way for you but I hope you find the release you seek and deserve. See you on the other side brother.

 

[weedoge]

Really hoping you don't suffer any pain or extreme anxiety, we'll be thinking of you.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

good luck, and rest well. I hope you find the peace that we're all looking for

 

[kat_illusion]

Wishing you a safe and painless journey. May we meet again x

 

[RogueJuliet]

May you find peace.

 

[Trashcan]

Godspeed. We'll miss you, but you deserve peace. And don't be ashamed if it doesn't work. The survival instinct can be hard to overcome.

 

[ouvreyes]

Good luck man, wish you the best. Go easy.

 

[Kirakishou]

aw good luck!
i hope you enjoy your last night :)

 

[1234dave]

Good luck you brave soul