Marystevenson1001
Member
- Aug 17, 2018
- 69
This is just some of my writing from a while back when I had hope of getting help. Just thought I'd share and maybe someone could relate. I've kinda lost hope that any boat would come at this point.
Attachment is not the problem that I seek help for. It's the lock that prevents me from opening the door to the possible solutions to the real problems. Attachment prevents me from getting what I need from everyone. From anyone.
It's like living in poverty. Poverty itself is not the problem. But poverty prevents people from getting their needs met.
Attachment is a barrier between me and wellness. It's a brick wall. An ocean bigger than all the oceans in the world combined.
If what you needed was on the other side of the ocean and there was no way to cross the ocean to get it, wouldn't you just give up? Wouldn't it be hopeless?
People get on boats and they speed away...waving. and I wave back. But there is not a boat for me. Why isn't there? Why can't I just get in the damn boat? And people get frustrated with me for not being able to. They think because they can, I should be able to as well.
Its like yelling at people who are holding a sign to get a job. It doesn't make them more able. It doesn't remove the barriers.
They just feel worse for being misunderstood about something they can't do. How does getting angry with a blind person make them see?
They need a seeing eye dog. Or a white cane to navigate the world. They navigate things a little differently, and they'll never be able to see "normally" but they can live an abundant life regardless.
The homeless person needs someone to be willing to provide the financial assistance and emotional support so they can get a job. Once they get a job, more doors will open and their self worth will emerge. They can have a meaningful existence.
So where can I rent the boats? Who would be willing to give me one. Or teach me how to get in one if an empty one emerged? I have no idea. Until then I just stand there with a sign, unable to see, feeling judged but not helped. Yelled at but not loved. I do not have a meaningful existence, and attachment is not the problem.
Attachment is not the problem that I seek help for. It's the lock that prevents me from opening the door to the possible solutions to the real problems. Attachment prevents me from getting what I need from everyone. From anyone.
It's like living in poverty. Poverty itself is not the problem. But poverty prevents people from getting their needs met.
Attachment is a barrier between me and wellness. It's a brick wall. An ocean bigger than all the oceans in the world combined.
If what you needed was on the other side of the ocean and there was no way to cross the ocean to get it, wouldn't you just give up? Wouldn't it be hopeless?
People get on boats and they speed away...waving. and I wave back. But there is not a boat for me. Why isn't there? Why can't I just get in the damn boat? And people get frustrated with me for not being able to. They think because they can, I should be able to as well.
Its like yelling at people who are holding a sign to get a job. It doesn't make them more able. It doesn't remove the barriers.
They just feel worse for being misunderstood about something they can't do. How does getting angry with a blind person make them see?
They need a seeing eye dog. Or a white cane to navigate the world. They navigate things a little differently, and they'll never be able to see "normally" but they can live an abundant life regardless.
The homeless person needs someone to be willing to provide the financial assistance and emotional support so they can get a job. Once they get a job, more doors will open and their self worth will emerge. They can have a meaningful existence.
So where can I rent the boats? Who would be willing to give me one. Or teach me how to get in one if an empty one emerged? I have no idea. Until then I just stand there with a sign, unable to see, feeling judged but not helped. Yelled at but not loved. I do not have a meaningful existence, and attachment is not the problem.