Attachment to good things

[offbalance]

I think life as a whole is awful and it sucks. The world is a disgusting place and life is inherently chaotic and nothing really makes sense. I've always felt this way. However I still feel attached to some good things I enjoy, even though they're fewer these days and it's probably just dopamine or whatever talking. However, I feel sometimes grateful to be able to experience some things and death sounds boring in that aspect even though logically I would probably be better off dead overall. Maybe that is partly just SI talking. How do you get rid of this attachment?

Because most of the time, I resent being here. Most of the time I logically do think death is better. Because life is inherently fucked up by its design and that isn't something that meds or whatever can fix. But it's a shitty place to hang onto something largely terrible just because it has some scraps of goodness mixed in.

/vent

 

[MidnightDream]

I don't think it's a case of getting rid of it, I think it's a case of altering your perspective and reflecting inwards.
Ask yourself, do you truly want to get rid of that attachment? Death comes for us all eventually, do you truly want to cut short your ability to enjoy those little things?
If/when you can answer that question with an absolute, the attachment won't matter either way. You'll have your answer.

 

[Gaga786]

I think life as a whole is awful and it sucks. The world is a disgusting place and life is inherently chaotic and nothing really makes sense. I've always felt this way. However I still feel attached to some good things I enjoy, even though they're fewer these days and it's probably just dopamine or whatever talking. However, I feel sometimes grateful to be able to experience some things and death sounds boring in that aspect even though logically I would probably be better off dead overall. Maybe that is partly just SI talking. How do you get rid of this attachment?

Because most of the time, I resent being here. Most of the time I logically do think death is better. Because life is inherently fucked up by its design and that isn't something that meds or whatever can fix. But it's a shitty place to hang onto something largely terrible just because it has some scraps of goodness mixed in.

/vent

I have the same thoughts. Life is just immensely tedious for me, but there are somethings which I do find appealing and captivating. Im always asking whether surviving here is worth it. Im not sure want the answer is. Its just complicated.

 

[FuneralCry]

The way that I see it, if there is anything that someone views as being positive in this world, the person will eventually grow tired of it and it will eventually lead to feeings of emptiness, or the thing will be ruined in some form or taken away or the suffering that life brings will increase to the point that all that one wishes for is to leave. Nothing ever lasts in this life, and I think that if someone is attached to something here, no matter what they will eventually lose it.

But I understand your feelings towards life. This world also disgusts me and I view life as being something totally harmful that is best avoided. Life really is something so incredibly useless as well and to me the only thing that could ever be close to being positive about it all, is the fact that this life will inevitably end someday. There's just too much suffering here for life to ever be worth enduring for me.

 

[Octavia]

Occasionally I have small moments in which I think that life is maybe worth living, but then I remember how horrible the world is.

 

[Mimi_]

There are still things you can enjoy, love, admire, find beauty, etc. And that's perfectly fine. You shouldn't focus too much on it, keep enjoying rare moments like that. I have no idea on how you can get rid of such feelings or if it is even possible. But to me, it would be useless trying to pursue this ideal instead of just enjoying few pleasant moments.
When it will be the time for you to ctb it shouldn't be enough to stop you anyway.