Atheism providing comfort for ctb

[Soulstax]

I lived a relatively good life, but ruined it all recently and now I will ctb in a few days when SN arrives. There is simply no way out of this other than jail time, complete destruction of reputation, loss of job, loss of home and family, and everything else I hold valuable.

The thing I've found interesting about this decision however is how okay I feel about doing this, and I think it's because of my atheism. I have been atheist for at least 10 years, and the fact that when I'm gone, I'm gone, and the complete finality of it provides me comfort . The devistation it will cause my family and everyone I knew will be immense, yet the fact that I know that I'll be gone and won't have to deal with it and anything else anymore makes it okay for me.

Does anyone else feel this way about ctb that happens to be atheist, about how final it is, and that providing comfort somehow?

 

[Zoltiel]

I'm not atheist, but I feel the same way. I think the more fucked and hopeless your life gets, the more reasonable CTB becomes as an option.

 

[Midnight-rain]

For a long time I feared the afterlife despite being an atheist. Not knowing what would happen (if anything) after ctbing ate at me. It wasn't until last year that I just reached a point where I didn't care. It is quite comforting, yes I agree. Now I'm only afraid of failing.

 

[Mr2005]

Well you're not going to go to hell if that's what you're worried about.

 

[GinaIsReady]

The afterlife, and the possibility of ultimately regretting my suicide kept me from fully committing to it for years. Some months ago I came to believe there is no afterlife. There is just nothing. That's when I became 100% ok with self-euthanizing. There is no higher purpose.

 

[HereToday]

Atheism doesn't comfort me, because while I don't believe in an afterlife that doesn't mean there isn't one

 

[Pan]

I can't help but think that this life isn't the only life, and that I will reincarnate as myself and start all over again.
I suspect that my consciousness will simply reboot and that the whole process will begin anew.

 

[Soulstax]

I can't help but think that this life isn't the only life, and that I will reincarnate as myself and start all over again.
I suspect that my consciousness will simply reboot and that the whole process will begin anew.

This thought kinda terrifies me though. Losing all my memories and going through life again. I happen to have lived a decent life, what if I reincarnate into a terrible life instead?

 

[AintNoWayOut]

very comforting to know i wont be sent to a place of eternal torture just for wanting to end this pain. dont get why some atheists are afraid of nothingness... must be because they have good lives and a lot to lose. i, however, dont.

also, the concept of hell is kind of why i have an issue with religious people... they act like their beliefs shouldnt bother us but they literally think that we'll be punished for ETERNITY for killing ourselves, and because they love and believe in their god, that we deserve it. kinda have a problem with that.

 

[chris8000]

Atheism is not the same as not believing in an afterlife.

You can believe in an afterlife without believing in God, that is what Buddhism is about, and there are various other schools of thought which have the same view. Plato's philosophy for example.

There are other reasons some people find for living other than material possessions, you might see those if you hang on in there even if your in jail.

 

[passenger27]

I've been an atheist since I stopped believing in Santa Claus. Eternal rest doesn't sound bad but if by some chance my conscience lives on in some sort of way I hope all my mental illnesses and physical problems will disappear and I can be happy.

 

[precipice]

yeah, I definitely feel the same way. I don't see how people find relief in the idea of an afterlife, when I die I don't wanna find out that there's more living to be done. I want out ffs