Assuming you're in a dreadful situation and suicide is the only idea that gives you confort..How do you cope with being alive?

[Ineedtodie]

For me Avoidance. Obviously it's one way to disaster.

 

[GetMeOut]

Drink is my main one. I've been an alcholic for years. I drink on the way to work, immediately after work, basically practically every waking moment I'm not working.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I try to prepare everything I need to in order to CTB. As in- method, will, notes, funeral. That can provide some relief that my exit is at least planned and feasible. Other than that- the same as you- distraction as much as possible. Sorry you are suffering.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I sleep and otherwise keep myself distracted with YouTube … try to forget this is happening

 

[Ineedtodie]

Drink is my main one. I've been an alcholic for years. I drink on the way to work, immediately after work, basically practically every waking moment I'm not working.

Alcohol does nothing to me. It make feel even worse

 

[fettuccinenoodle]

Alcohol does nothing to me. It make feel even worse

Same. Its a depressant. I wake up with horrible Anxiety the next morning and soo shakey

I just keep planning and testing ctb methods. And reading about others here and chatting it helps me not feel alone. Also i live with someone soo 2 nights ago i was going to try but they were home. Then last night a friend insisted i come over. They get in the way as annoying as it is but it keeps me here another day

One day at a time i guess

 

[FuneralCry]

If I don't ctb then I have no choice but to continue existing. I never asked for any of this yet I feel trapped here in the prison that is existence. Every waking moment is spent wishing to die. There is no relief from suffering at all in this world, life exists as a concept in which to create unnecessary torture, I see life as being a cruel burden unfairly inflicted on to us, so of course the thought of death and returning to nothingness is the only comfort. I've always found comfort in the thought of death where everything will be finally be forgotten about. Even sleep doesn't offer any relief as long as the chance of waking again is always there.

 

[The Eeyorish One]

1. Sleep. Lots and lots of sleep. Like, 12-14 hours a day.
2. Every waking moment is pretty much spent in front of a screen to distract myself and help shut my brain off so I can't think the dark thoughts as much.
3. Edibles. I don't do them anymore because one of my partners started getting upset that I was doing weed and not doing anything, but while I was doing them they helped. For me, it made me relax and often made me slightly euphoric.

 

[almaranthine]

I sleep, curled up with my arms crossed, clasped to my chest. Being unconscious is the only true escape from the depressing reality and ultimate failure of my life. I used to be able to drink to feel better, but nowadays it makes me feel much worse. When I was younger I smoked weed, but eventually it started to have a poor affect on my mental health and perhaps even contributed to my manic/psychotic episodes.

 

[Venus13]

Spirituality, learning psychology to understand why I hurt, music, weed, and learning about methods.

 

[actual_fox]

I sleep and otherwise keep myself distracted with YouTube … try to forget this is happening

same

 

[mateodolores]

Alcohol and sex/porn are the main coping mechanisms for me in this prison. That and the thought of a paradise after I succeed (fingers crossed) keep me from completely spiraling and impulsively attempting something I know I'll fail and regret.

 

[makethepainstop]

1. Sleep. Lots and lots of sleep. Like, 12-14 hours a day.
2. Every waking moment is pretty much spent in front of a screen to distract myself and help shut my brain off so I can't think the dark thoughts as much.
3. Edibles. I don't do them anymore because one of my partners started getting upset that I was doing weed and not doing anything, but while I was doing them they helped. For me, it made me relax and often made me slightly euphoric.

Street drugs for some, alcohol for others, and blessed THC gummies for others. Trying to numb the pain we feel every day of our wretched lives.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

sleep alot to avoid reality and when awake distract myself on the internet.

 

[Huntfish34]

Booze and various other drugs.... without them I'm fairly sure I would have pulled the trigger already.

 

[Wannagonow]

Avoid people at all cost, watch my true crime shows and surf the net. Magically the day will soon arrive that I have the means and energy enough to ctb. So far that works in my world.

 

[Fulminare]

Most often I work my butt off and/or watch something entertaining. There are periods where I cannot sit still or I'm unable to fall asleep because my intrusive thoughts are too much. So I stay up for days, doing whatever.

 

[SamTam33]

I don't know that I actually cope. But I've memorized the movements. Like muscle memory.

I know all the moves I need to make to keep existing. I know where to access my passwords to log in to the different accounts and pay bills.

I remember how to pump gas. How to cook stuff. How to wash and fold clothes.

I'm aware of what the bare minimum is and through repetition, I know how to achieve it.

Not coping at all, I don't think. Just performing the different parts of the play from memory because I've done them so much.

 

[lachrymost]

Distract, distract, distract! Cry and freak out about it hardcore. Then back to distraction!

 

[makethepainstop]

To tell you the truth one thing that really helps is knowing that I will not have to do this much longer. The most delicious thought of being dead by my own efforts is like a tranquilizer. There is no one and nothing in the universe that can stop it. Once I hit the "COMMIT" button...like a rocket launch I will go through the start-up sequence, ignition stage, and liftoff, then its lights out. No more hurting for this boy! YAY VIVA SANCTIONED SUICIDE! Oh, sorry got carried away.

 

[Ineedtodie]

Same. Its a depressant. I wake up with horrible Anxiety the next morning and soo shakey

I just keep planning and testing ctb methods. And reading about others here and chatting it helps me not feel alone. Also i live with someone soo 2 nights ago i was going to try but they were home. Then last night a friend insisted i come over. They get in the way as annoying as it is but it keeps me here another day

One day at a time i guess

Not feeling alone always even in your lonliest moment. Know that some of us out there having panic attacks or feel totally rejected and abandoned even worse, with not connection or validation whatsoever to feel bit like a functional worthy person.

 

[Reallysad]

Going to work is the only way I cope and that is sad.I come home and I hate it

 

[makethepainstop]

How do I cope with the pain of life? BADLY!

 

[Wehmut]

I usually try to keep myself very busy. If I cant bear it anymore I will isolate myself and sleep alot and pretty much do nothing all day.

 

[SilentSadness]

I am trapped in a dreadful situation, as I think most of us are, and don't have a way to ctb. I hate living and have grown numb to the knowledge that we live in hell. Comfort is very temporary and rarely lasts more than a few minutes. I'm sure that if I had a good ctb method, I would take it.

 

[Unending]

I don't know but I've noticed that I can only really enjoy things most of the time if it is on the topic of suicide and death or something loosely related to it. Music, film, literature, etc. My brain just rejects anything else so I guess you could say I cope by ingraining my mind's obsession into everything I do. Life is still absolute hell though so I'd hardly call it coping. Hopefully that makes sense.

 

[Solek]

Overeating and internet (games, series, etc).

 

[Octavia]

I don't, I end myself lol

 

[Deleted member 31858]

with benzos, alcohol, sleeping even though I can't sleep much and thinking that my puppy needs me, it also helps me to know that I have my method ready

 

[RichardFirst]

I've had major issues since January. I got though it by taking things one day at a time.