Assist with the end

[macrocosm]

I'm in my 40's now, and have been living with biological depression since I could remember. I didn't know what it was until a few years ago after I sought to get professional help and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. But the thought of escaping the pain of existence has been with me since I was very young. Though my life was never lacking for anything, the last few years have been almost unbearable.

Anyway, I want to make the end an adventure, maybe go to another country and find somewhere pristine and remote and never be found.

Any suggestions on where and how? Anyone else feel the same way?

(I want to say that if you're really young there is real help out there. Personally I've lived long enough and there were some good moments sprinkled throughout. Maybe give yourself a chance)

 

[man_in_red:)]

Go to Alaska and see the aurora borealis.

 

[ZeroSuitDoomgirl]

Go to Alaska and see the aurora borealis.

Agree 100%. There are some extremely remote spots in Alaska, and if you can get to the US/live in the US, it's as simple as a plane ticket and then a car trip.

 

[Gonnerr]

I'm in my 40's now, and have been living with biological depression since I could remember. I didn't know what it was until a few years ago after I sought to get professional help and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder. But the thought of escaping the pain of existence has been with me since I was very young. Though my life was never lacking for anything, the last few years have been almost unbearable.

Anyway, I want to make the end an adventure, maybe go to another country and find somewhere pristine and remote and never be found.

Any suggestions on where and how? Anyone else feel the same way?

I feel the same , im in my 40's also, i think its time for me to go , not everybody wants to go all the way to 70's or 80's. But for me i will stay in my country do to it because i got all my stuff here , SN , charcoal , tent and everything to go out peacefully in my tent in a remote place. I know i can buy everything in another country, maybe not SN but my country is big enough to get lost and die.

 

[macrocosm]

Agree 100%. There are some extremely remote spots in Alaska, and if you can get to the US/live in the US, it's as simple as a plane ticket and then a car trip.

I'm in the US, but don't know the first thing on how. Like how much SN I would need and how to administer and if it's painful or not etc…

I feel the same , im in my 40's also, i think its time for me to go , not everybody wants to go all the way to 70's or 80's. But for me i will stay in my country do to it because i got all my stuff here , SN , charcoal , tent and everything to go out peacefully in my tent in a remote place. I know i can buy everything in another country, maybe not SN but my country is big enough to get lost and die.

Where are you located?

 

[ZeroSuitDoomgirl]

I'm no expert on SN and won't pretend to be, but there's a comprehensive guide here on the site: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/

The Peaceful Pill Handbook also has a lot of useful info, including detailed use instructions

Edit: just occurred to me that you might not even have SN yet lmao, I don't know of a good place to get it but plenty of people on the site do

 

[macrocosm]

I'm no expert on SN and won't pretend to be, but there's a comprehensive guide here on the site: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-megathread.1156/

The Peaceful Pill Handbook also has a lot of useful info, including detailed use instructions

Edit: just occurred to me that you might not even have SN yet lmao, I don't know of a good place to get it but plenty of people on the site do

Thank you I'll look it up

 

[FuneralCry]

It's very much understandable just wishing to completely disappear in a remote location and never be found.
But I really don't agree with the pro life preaching at the end of your post, you don't know anything about anyone else's life and I bet you wouldn't like it if people invalidated your wish to die. Wanting to die isn't an "illness", that needs to be helped, some people just have awareness of the fact that existence isn't worth enduring and that life is a completely futile process. I could never be delusional enough to want to exist in this world where there is unlimited potential to suffer, I believe that wanting suicide is a perfectly logical response to something so harmful as existing where all that is inevitable for us as humans is suffering, loss and decay.

 

[GasMonkey]

40's isn't that old, there is real help out there. Maybe give yourself a chance.

 

[macrocosm]

It's very much understandable just wishing to completely disappear in a remote location and never be found.
But I really don't agree with the pro life preaching at the end of your post, you don't know anything about anyone else's life and I bet you wouldn't like it if people invalidated your wish to die. Wanting to die isn't an "illness", that needs to be helped, some people just have awareness of the fact that existence isn't worth enduring and that life is a completely futile process. I could never be delusional enough to want to exist in this world where there is unlimited potential to suffer, I believe that wanting suicide is a perfectly logical response to something so harmful as existing where all that is inevitable for us as humans is suffering, loss and decay.

Good point, I know more than anyone the pain and suffering of existence, and yes I agree that suicide is a logical and a perfectly ok response. I never understood why the law forces people to suffer from unbarable physical or existential pain. Maybe a misguided conscious prompted me to write that at the end.

40's isn't that old, there is real help out there. Maybe give yourself a chance.

Point made