Venting Assholes

[SoulWhisperer]

PS: This is not directed to anyone here. It is a pure vent for myself to let out my thoughts in a non-destructive/hamrful way.

You stupid assholes, I hate you so much from the bottom depths of my cold stone heart.

You always think you are right, you cannot, you simply CANNOT ACCEPT BEING IN THE WRONG. And whenever you are EVIDENTLY in the wrong and backed up against a wall, you'll always resort to bringing up old shit, unrelated shit, anything ANYTHING that was wrong before regardless of relevance just to be "right" KNOWING DAMN WELL, it got jackshit TO DO with the current topic.

Whenever I "attack" by highlighting the bullshit you said, the lies, the false information, the baseless assumptions or VIRTUALLY ANYTHING then I immediately get met with ACTIVE AGGRESSIVE HOSTILITY. It's easy to abuse your position of "power" and to just silence the other fucking person WHENEVER ITS MORE CONVENIENT FOR YOU, RIGHT? That's how easy it is for you. Always fucking shitting on the other person because "you can" when you know you're wrong and simply cannot accept it.

BUT WHEN OTHERS ARE WRONG, OR EVEN BETTER, LOOK IN THE WRONG TO YOU, even minimally, then you IMMEDIATELY jump them. Always acting high and fucking mighty over your throne made of pure shit, like the things you are.

It's very comical to you to piss others off without a reason, claiming to be right and WHEN CONFRONTED IN A SERIOUS WAY, LAUGHING IT OFF. WHAT'S YOUR MATURITY IN LAUGHING IN THE FACE OF ANOTHER PERSON AFTER PISSING THEM OFF. WHERE'S YOUR MATURITY.

Anything I say is incremented tenfold but when they insult me heavily, call me a clown, call me a murderer because I don't talk to people (after YOU made me that way with your abuse), compare me to DRUG DEALERS for the sake of it...

That's where I draw the line.

You fail to comprehend your mistakes.
You always assume you are right.
You cannot process being incorrect.
You make fun of others after damaging them, physically or psychologically; directly or indirectly.
You think you are superior to others because you exist.

I am sorry, but now it's my time to really be unable to accept something.
I refuse to deal with you. I refuse to have ANYTHING to do with you. I refuse to assist you, to care for you, to affiliate myself with you.

I am so done, done, done, over-fucking-done and fed up of your bullshit, every, fucking, time.

You made me depressed, you made me suicidal, you made me want to kill myself like few things in my life.

I have no more words for you.

 

[CatLvr]

I feel like I could have written this WAY back at the beginning of my journey (like late teens, early to mid-20s). I am close to 70 now. I wish I could tell you it gets better. Actually it does and it doesn't. There will always be assholes. But they are interspersed with good people.

I was headed towards being just like my mother. She had the blackest, most evil heart of any person I have ever met in my life. Truly.

But I was miserable. So what changed me?? My first child. I realized that if I didn't change who I was becoming I was going to wind up treating him just like my mother treated me. It took me quite a while -- years in fact -- and took a ton of work on my part, back when mental health and therapists were unheard of. There were probably only a handful of psychiatrists in any given state back then. But I got it done.

Do I still have problems? Yes
Can I still be an asshole? Most assuredly
Do assholes still piss me off? Of course

BUT ... The life I have lived has been IN SPITE of those assholes, not as a result of how they tried to make me feel. I suppose it could be argued that they made me who I am, but the fact that they never actually expected me to walk away and succeed at raising my kids, buying my own home and making it to retirement age without them and their "support" makes me wonder what I could have been had they been even half as supportive as they were spiteful.

Anyway, I feel your pain. Your post makes me really sad that others are having to go through the same bullshit I did. I'm sorry you are going through this.