
Butterfly65
One step closer
- Oct 28, 2020
- 157
And my final days on this Earth are quickly slipping by I find myself stressing out about what will I be doing the week before my CTB date? Will I be sticking to my usual schedule? I'm not able to go out and do things of a bucket list nature due to my health and financial reasons. I usually just watch Netflix and stay in bed spending time with my dog and cat. Will I be doing this the week before, the days before? What will the night before and the day of be like for me? Thinking about how the best feeling in the world is when I wake up in the morning and my dog is there to give me kisses and love and beg for her breakfast. It's agonizing to think I won't be there that next morning to give her that love or to give her breakfast. It's so strange to feel I'm here now but soon I won't be. How do people deal with this? I know I can change my mind. But that's not even a remote viable option for me at this time.