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Life interrupted

Life interrupted

Trapped in life
Mar 18, 2022
140
I have a declining health because of a delta infection last year. I wake up in pain and my waking hours are hell. I have constant shortness of breath and palpitations. I feel unwell 90% of the time. I used to enjoy my job and my life as a normal person. Now I have no job and no social life. My identity has been erased. I'm not independent anymore. I don't think it's possible to live without dreams and plans for the future. I've been pushed to the edge. I feel forced to ctb if you know what I mean.
 
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luke_skywalker

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Mar 22, 2022
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Nobody can argue if someone is having enough reasons to die or not except him or her self. Like so I do not think anybody is forced to end their life in normal circumstances (Someone pointing a gun to their head and forced to kill themselves might be the right situation to say 'they are forced to end their on life'). What you decide to choose is and should be up to your choice.
 
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Life interrupted

Trapped in life
Mar 18, 2022
140
Nobody can argue if someone is having enough reasons to die or not except him or her self. Like so I do not think anybody is forced to end their life in normal circumstances (Someone pointing a gun to their head and forced to kill themselves might be the right situation to say 'they are forced to end their on life'). What you decide to choose is and should be up to your choice.
I feel forced to do it now before I get worse and lose more independence.
 
Kurinoy

Kurinoy

I'm the rain. I'm the moonlight.
Apr 5, 2022
63
I have a declining health because of a delta infection last year. I wake up in pain and my waking hours are hell. I have constant shortness of breath and palpitations. I feel unwell 90% of the time. I used to enjoy my job and my life as a normal person. Now I have no job and no social life. My identity has been erased. I'm not independent anymore. I don't think it's possible to live without dreams and plans for the future. I've been pushed to the edge. I feel forced to cbt if you know what I mean.
I was in the same position not a long time ago. The constant feeling of having suicide as the only realistic option to stop suffering. I lost all I had.
I guess it's a valid reason to cbt not gonna lie.

But... It's a delusion to think it's the only option for you to get out of that hell. That's my opinion.
 
Darkover

Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
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incurable health conditions are definitely a death sentence it's you learn to live with it or take thing into your own hands and sometimes it's impossible to live with so ones left with no choice but to ctb
 
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Life interrupted

Trapped in life
Mar 18, 2022
140
But... It's a delusion to think it's the only option for you to get out of that hell. That's my opinion.
In my situation it is. I see no improvement and doctors have no clue.
 
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luke_skywalker

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Mar 22, 2022
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I feel forced to do it now before I get worse and lose more independence.
Well, then maybe if you 'feel' like you are being forced to kill your self, I think you are not having a right set of mind to do so. It' s important to see your situation objectively. 'Is killing my self the only option left?' 'They are not many but few options that I can choose, but does that worth more than CTB?' After going through and understanding fully about your self is necessary to avoid emotional and impulsive decisions that you can not undo
 
Kurinoy

Kurinoy

I'm the rain. I'm the moonlight.
Apr 5, 2022
63
In my situation it is. I see no improvement and doctors have no clue.
There are two options... Stop the game right here and right now or keep going forward till the end. Both options are valid. It's your choice.

You never know what is going to happen. Your health condition may not change but maybe your life can get better overall... Or everything can get worse. Who knows.
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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That must be so unbearable what you are going through. I'm sorry that you are suffering. It is awful that our bodies are capable of torturing us so much. I hope you find relief from pain in whatever happens.
 

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