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FreeHer77

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Sep 12, 2025
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Are you really ready to ctb? I'm ready but I honestly don't want to die alone.
 
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Irisse

Irisse

Art belongs to Maksn (on yt)
Sep 8, 2025
144
Not yet, there are things I need to do before ctb. And I don't have SN yet or meto so I need to acquire that first, as I'm too much of a coward for any other method.
 
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Carcassus

Carcassus

dissociating...
Jul 19, 2025
13
Not yet, but I'm working on it. I want to go over every detail and have a solid plan so I can avoid failure in execution as much as possible. I don't want to be found early nor suffer brain damage.
 
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LigottiIsRight

LigottiIsRight

Life is not worth beginning.
Jan 28, 2025
130
Not in a 100%, although I have thought about it deeply and I have enough and powerful reasons to do it. Only a residual irrational resistance to turning the lights off is keeping me here. Same shitty situation than a lot of people in this forum, I guess.
 
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WildecoyetE

Member
Sep 18, 2025
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Are you really ready to ctb? I'm ready but I honestly don't want to die alone.
im ready as it will be a end to the torture im currently living , as long as no 1 finds me till after ive passed
 
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Wrath

Wrath

Long live my dead dreams.
Dec 12, 2024
59
In a perfect world, someone could hold my hand. In this world, they'd probably get off to it lol. I really just want a hug. But that's too many things going wrong. So I'll have to work up the courage I've never had my entire life to do it alone.
 
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Sinful

Sinful

Member
Sep 16, 2025
56
100%, I have moments where I get tempted to go thru with it earlier than planned.
It honestly feels like being close to an upcoming vacation or a holiday; you're excited but then you remember that you still have things to do.
 
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Liebestod

Liebestod

I’ll do it whenever I stop being a coward
Mar 15, 2025
118
It's funny because I have the urge to order the gun I wanna use and then I'm like "no I won't do it yet" but no I'm not ready yet. Maybe I will be soon (of course I won't).
 
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MyShadow

MyShadow

Torn between fixing and ending my life
Aug 27, 2025
249
At the moment, no.
After months of depression and despair, I am starting to enjoy feeling the sun on my face.
 
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heyilikeicecream

heyilikeicecream

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Jul 2, 2025
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Are you really ready to ctb? I'm ready but I honestly don't want to die alone.
yes, i am. just waiting for my SN to arrive, but other than that, everything else is already finished. i have written the important letters, cleaned my room, and spent more time with my family. i am ready for whatever lies ahead.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
45,023
Yes, all I'm ready for is the peace of non-existence where this torturous, dreadful existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake is finally all forgotten, for me non-existence is just all that's positive, all I want is to never suffer again.

I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be free from the abomination of existence, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result, I really will always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured no matter what.
 
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autumn68

autumn68

Member
Apr 4, 2025
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i don't think i'm ready but i feel like i need to do it sooner rather than later
 
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NellyGoes

Sure.
Aug 16, 2025
151
Absolutely, 100%. I have my date (after I "missed" my last) and I'm counting down the days (which are now finally dwindling away again). I only pray that everything will go well. Last time everything well smoothly (emotionally and psychologically. But I ended up running out of time…:/).
It's a bit sad I will no longer exist sure. that's on my mind. But I'm ready for it. I'm ready to go home.
 
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Traveller12724

Experienced
May 14, 2024
278
I am definitely ready. Letters are written, supplies are locked in and ready to go. Only thing that's left is waiting until I am almost out of money in which case I will have no other way out.
 
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AuraByte

AuraByte

If I'm lost, please don't find me.
Jun 24, 2025
78
Do I want to?

At this moment in time, yes.

But due to certain responsibilities, I can't just yet.

I'm being held hostage to live lol.
 
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