reiII
maybe there's something more
- Dec 5, 2023
- 55
i hate when my friends ask me that. i don't want to talk. it'll just burden you. i want to stop burdening you that's why i want to be gone forever. i think iwant you to feel happiness without me constantly hating myself around you. it's a plague. i want to stop feeling these feelings. i hate venting to my friends. in the end it never even feels good. i haven't told anyone there what i really think about which is just SN, and dying. i fantasize about death now everyday at least twice. i can't just tell people important to me about that.
i don't know. this post is not constructed, it's just whatever. i feel on the brink of tears which is why i just rambled about whatever.
ive been thinking about buying an exacto knife and putting some fujin stickers on it so it's a bit more joyful of an object to destroy my body with. i will update you all. i used to do it with an old eyebrow razor or just a kitchen knife but it really took effort to break skin.
remember... fujin is epic
i don't know. this post is not constructed, it's just whatever. i feel on the brink of tears which is why i just rambled about whatever.
ive been thinking about buying an exacto knife and putting some fujin stickers on it so it's a bit more joyful of an object to destroy my body with. i will update you all. i used to do it with an old eyebrow razor or just a kitchen knife but it really took effort to break skin.
remember... fujin is epic
