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bankai

bankai

Mage
Mar 16, 2025
521
Yes, I know that we're all looking to catch the bus to the great beyond, but until then, and maybe that time never comes, we certainly cannot be lax with our health.I go to the gym every day. Eat a balanced diet. My closet contains every single supplement you can think about. All the minerals and vitamins, all the amino acids, chlorella, et cetera. I hit the steam room at least five times a week. Cold plunge a couple of times a week. This helps mitochondrial health. Weightlifting as well.I also do zone 2 cardio at around 70% of my Max heart rate. Feeling really healthy and fit. I of course want to end it all every day, but that's beside the point. Maybe I change my mind at some point as I'm entitled to and continue living?So you don't want to like, neglect your health and then suddenly decide you want to live and then be in a bad situation, right? Get what I'm saying? So the question is, are you guys taking care of your health?
 
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lamy's sacred sleep

lamy's sacred sleep

Death is bliss.
Nov 22, 2024
556
i eat well enough.
I keep my hygiene well.

i work out semi regularly, but it's been dropping off.
It's hard to convince myself when I really want my time to come.
 
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22yearsbroken

22yearsbroken

ARLDSTE
Feb 15, 2025
201
I have a good diet but thats only due to the bits broken.. failing liver ..nackerd kidneys and spleen .. body hirts just to walk around the house ...ive broken more bones than i dare to remember... i have osteoarthritis in my knees and hands osteopenia in my spine and neroupatyh in both feet... i feel like a bag of broken biscuits... i used to be extreamly fit and healthy but things happen and time moves forward and tbings decay...

It is what it is ...
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Bad Decisions -The Strokes
Mar 31, 2025
54
I went on Mirtazapine and I gained a few kg but I'm still balancing my weight. I do exercises every couple days. Sometimes I skip because I'm tired. Before I got on Mirtazapine I didn't exercise as much and I didn't even gain any weight I stayed almost the same weight for plenty of years like I gain one kg then lose it. But Mirtazapine fucked me thats why I stopped it. It makes you hungry 24/7 and makes you gain a lot of weight. But it helped with my sleeping issues a lot.
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

無知の知
Apr 22, 2025
65
Nope, don't deserve it. I'm actively neglecting my health and sabotaging it.

I'll damn myself to the abyss one way or another.
 
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bankai

bankai

Mage
Mar 16, 2025
521
I went on Mirtazapine and I gained a few kg but I'm still balancing my weight. I do exercises every couple days. Sometimes I skip because I'm tired. Before I got on Mirtazapine I didn't exercise as much and I didn't even gain any weight I stayed almost the same weight for plenty of years like I gain one kg then lose it. But Mirtazapine fucked me thats why I stopped it. It makes you hungry 24/7 and makes you gain a lot of weight. But it helped with my sleeping issues a lot.
I put on so much weight every Christmas, New Year season I'm not gonna lie. Cutting weight isn't too big a deal for me as long as I don't get too out of hand. I enjoy food quite a bit.
Nope, don't deserve it. I'm actively neglecting my health and sabotaging it.

I'll damn myself to the abyss one way or another.
Hey cmon,that's a horrible idea.The body is the housing for the soul. I hate life but I don't want to mistreat my body either. You only get one.
 
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LastNite

LastNite

Bad Decisions -The Strokes
Mar 31, 2025
54
Nope, don't deserve it. I'm actively neglecting my health and sabotaging it.

I'll damn myself to the abyss one way or another.
Even if you hate your own guts I'd say love yourself because in all honesty nobody is there to love you and I dont mean this in a bad way but you only got yourself at the end so take care of yourself, your body, and your mind.
 
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bus catcher

bus catcher

Want to escape into nature.
Jul 22, 2024
31
I've been making an effort to take better care of myself by going to the gym and sticking to a daily routine. brushing my teeth, taking care of my hair, and showering more consistently. I think that focusing on these small habits will hopefully boost my confidence and help me better navigate life's challenges.
 
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Zoro1029

Member
Mar 15, 2025
86
Yes i eat healthy and go on long walks everyday. My sleep is fucked but its out of my control mostly.

I want to be in the best possible mental and physical shape to CTB so the anxiety and unease is manageable
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

無知の知
Apr 22, 2025
65
Hey cmon,that's a horrible idea.The body is the housing for the soul. I hate life but I don't want to mistreat my body either. You only get one.

Even if you hate your own guts I'd say love yourself because in all honesty nobody is there to love you and I dont mean this in a bad way but you only got yourself at the end so take care of yourself, your body, and your mind.
I don't know what else to say to this but, I genuinely cannot fathom loving myself. But it's not like I ever expected anyone to love me either. I don't feel like I'm missing anything in that respect. Love is just something that exists.

There is a distinct difference in values here, and I fear that we simply won't see eye to eye. But that's okay, and I appreciate the sentiment nonetheless, even if I cannot comprehend it.

At the end of the day though, the only thing I wish for is to cease by any means, even if it means I have to rot away to do so.
 
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bankai

bankai

Mage
Mar 16, 2025
521
I don't know what else to say to this but, I genuinely cannot fathom loving myself. But it's not like I ever expected anyone to love me either. I don't feel like I'm missing anything in that respect. Love is just something that exists.

There is a distinct difference in values here, and I fear that we simply won't see eye to eye. But that's okay, and I appreciate the sentiment nonetheless, even if I cannot comprehend it.

At the end of the day though, the only thing I wish for is to cease by any means, even if it means I have to rot away to do so.
Even if it's extremely slow and painful?Because that's the problem with not taking care of your health. The long term suffering isn't worth it. Also, what if you wanted to travel to a nice place to catch the bus? You'd have to be healthy.There are a lot of reasons to be healthy. If you wanted to climb up to a really tall place so that you can jump off it, you get the drift. Silly, I know, but you get the idea.
 
Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
229
No, I'd rather ruin my health as much as possible so I can die of natural causes. If the CTB doesn't get there first.
 
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Andrew10

Andrew10

Member
May 6, 2023
94
Owns Cristiano Ronaldo GIF
 
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bankai

bankai

Mage
Mar 16, 2025
521
No, I'd rather ruin my health as much as possible so I can die of natural causes. If the CTB doesn't get there first.
That doesn't make sense though. That will take an extremely long time. You know the body is really resilient, right? It doesn't work that way. Tooth decay, mineral deficiencies, diseases,it will only hasten a lot of illness and suffering.
 
meowmentous

meowmentous

trying to survive
Apr 7, 2025
45
I mainly do so because I have OCD. I Hate Germs 😖 and also unrelated to that, I just cannot deal with greasy hair, it makes me feel so gross!
 
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Rynalia

Rynalia

無知の知
Apr 22, 2025
65
Even if it's extremely slow and painful?Because that's the problem with not taking care of your health. The long term suffering isn't worth it. Also, what if you wanted to travel to a nice place to catch the bus? You'd have to be healthy.There are a lot of reasons to be healthy. If you wanted to climb up to a really tall place so that you can jump off it, you get the drift. Silly, I know, but you get the idea.
I was planning for slow and painful from the start. Anything else is just a bonus.
 
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Daenerys Targaryen

Daenerys Targaryen

toxic
Jan 4, 2025
229
That doesn't make sense though. That will take an extremely long time. You know the body is really resilient, right? It doesn't work that way. Tooth decay, mineral deficiencies, diseases,it will only hasten a lot of illness and suffering.
Yes, but the more lottery tickets you give them, the more chances you have. You get to the point where you don't care; dying slowly is indifferent to you if you no longer feel pain with what you have and more pain than you can bear. But the wait is very long, sometimes the CTB will arrive earlier.
 
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aalmoa001

aalmoa001

One toe in the grave
Apr 14, 2025
67
Yes, I know that we're all looking to catch the bus to the great beyond, but until then, and maybe that time never comes, we certainly cannot be lax with our health.I go to the gym every day. Eat a balanced diet. My closet contains every single supplement you can think about. All the minerals and vitamins, all the amino acids, chlorella, et cetera. I hit the steam room at least five times a week. Cold plunge a couple of times a week. This helps mitochondrial health. Weightlifting as well.I also do zone 2 cardio at around 70% of my Max heart rate. Feeling really healthy and fit. I of course want to end it all every day, but that's beside the point. Maybe I change my mind at some point as I'm entitled to and continue living?So you don't want to like, neglect your health and then suddenly decide you want to live and then be in a bad situation, right? Get what I'm saying? So the question is, are you guys taking care of your health?
Honestly I've been trying and trying my hardest to eat well and exercise. Any way to not feel like this is worth a try
 
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Redacted24

Might be Richard Cory... or not
Nov 20, 2023
427
Other than basic hygiene like brushing teeth and bathing, no I'm not taking care of myself. I've started having problems with hips and legs - coworkers have noticed that I now limp noticeably - I'm showing signs of high blood pressure.

I haven't had a physical checkup in years, not even an eye exam (and my eyeglasses are outdated and scratched)

If natural causes take me quickly that's great. Of not and the physical housing unit starts failing I can help it release me, so that's comforting.
 
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goodlifesurfaceskim

goodlifesurfaceskim

Member
Apr 26, 2025
21
The less i face myself, less anxiety. Dreaming is my escape, i'll dig a hole under my own conscience to ctb. Can't face the reality that ive created head on, will offset my progress in ctb mindset
 
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nobody_oac

Member
Mar 28, 2025
11
In most cases it's pure torture. If the end is the goal, then why bother. Insane amounts of sleeping(12-15 hours a day), days of no eating followed by a day of binge eating garbage. I have to walk upstairs to use the restroom, but I do so begrudgingly.
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
315
Still shower,work out regularly (weights and hiit) and eat a good diet

As for sleep depends but mostly I stay up late.

But moslty depends on my mood sometimes I can get things done and other times like screw everything
 
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hatethisreality

hatethisreality

pokémon devotee forever (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.゚
Feb 23, 2025
5
no and tbh i've been neglecting my physical health ever since covid lockdown happened, especially bcs i hide in my room almost every single day… i always hated this body and ever since two years ago i started feeling like this body isn't truly who i am and i'm just trapped. at this point i feel like my self-esteem is nearly nonexistent now, so i don't even have any motivation anymore and i really just stopped caring
 
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NoPoint2Life

Why is this so hard?
Aug 31, 2024
655
I mainly do so because I have OCD. I Hate Germs 😖 and also unrelated to that, I just cannot deal with greasy hair, it makes me feel so gross!
Ditto!!!!!!!!
Other than basic hygiene like brushing teeth and bathing, no I'm not taking care of myself. I've started having problems with hips and legs - coworkers have noticed that I now limp noticeably - I'm showing signs of high blood pressure.

I haven't had a physical checkup in years, not even an eye exam (and my eyeglasses are outdated and scratched)

If natural causes take me quickly that's great. Of not and the physical housing unit starts failing I can help it release me, so that's comforting.
This is where I struggle. The conflict. Well not the hygiene part at all. But I am currently determined not to go to any doctors. Although for some reason, I still go to the dentist lol 2x a year. And eye doctor like every two years because that's when I generally need a new prescription and I can't stand not seeing properly.

But I am 44. and going to my GP will only make them want to send me for so many tests and specialists required for my age. I just don't want any part of that. However, once I reach your point where it was affecting my everyday life the way it's affecting your everyday life I would feel compelled to do something so that my suffering is less. But I also know it's going to open up a whole can of worms if I have to. I already have relatives telling me I should see certain doctors and I panic at the thought that soon at 45 inevitably those even closer to me are going to wind up practically forcing me and not shutting up about it until I go.
 
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sleepy_redcar

sleepy_redcar

Hard to decipher this path
May 12, 2024
34
I go to to the gym regularly and hit my protein goal everyday, but I sleep excessively (like 12 hours everyday) which causes me to feel tired, I push through it, and I occasionally clean my environment, but my mental blocks and bad habits from addiction persist despite exercise and eating healthy 🫠
 
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CatLvr

Enlightened
Aug 1, 2024
1,198
Not lately. Rainy weather knocks my physical pain levels off the charts and it has been all I can do to not just eat a bullet and get it over with. I would NEVER say this to my kid but damn, staying here for him really hurts sometimes. 🤫😭😭
 
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soledad.virgen

soledad.virgen

call me sol
Dec 1, 2020
149
im kinda weird. i care about my skincare and dental health, and i try to get my steps in and eat proteins and healthy veggies, yet my actual caloric intake is low. i want to look attractive by being as skinny as possible, I'd like to spoil myself and hook up with a couple of girls before i ultimately ctb hhh, it is silly and lecherous but i mean why not, I don't have anything to live for
 
bankai

bankai

Mage
Mar 16, 2025
521
I go to to the gym regularly and hit my protein goal everyday, but I sleep excessively (like 12 hours everyday) which causes me to feel tired, I push through it, and I occasionally clean my environment, but my mental blocks and bad habits from addiction persist despite exercise and eating healthy 🫠
Interestingly, sleep is the most anabolic thing possible. Nothing builds more muscle.
 

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