Are you afraid of losing your independence? Being disabled, going to hospital for your life, being in a "body jail" with less and less freedom...

[disabledlife]

Are you afraid of losing your independence?

I'm increasingly considering CTB (Cognitive Biological Therapy) because my Ehlers-Danlos syndrome is gradually robbing me of my independence, with no hope of a cure (I've shared my life story here and there on this forum).

I'm worried about the pain, my vision (I have eye problems), my bowel and hearing issues, the fact that I can no longer properly wash myself, and having to postpone essential tasks, including eating and grocery shopping.

I'm extremely scared of my life and incredibly angry when I see people my age living their lives, traveling everywhere, starting families, achieving social status and wealth, while I'm gifted, apparently with an IQ of 140, but in a physical wreck. My brain seems only good for lamenting my fate with as much lucidity as possible—a fine punishment from damn nature, which decided to ruin my life from birth with terrible genetics.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Yes.

They are so evil . They purposely restrict Nembutal, fentanyl, sarco suicide pod from people suffering extreme torture. They made all those and more crimes

A dog can have Nembutal but a human has to keep suffering extremely

Pet Nembutal or pentobarbital can be at most $100 for 2 bottles 12 .6 grams. The only reason we can't purchase such a product is that the government politicians wrote laws saying buying or selling Nembutal is a crime. But its not . They subjectively decided to make it a crime.

They made us slaves prisoners torture puppets

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I can toilet, wash and cook for myself. But I can't do anything that involves participating in society because my social anxiety is so bad.

 

[disabledlife]

It's truly a shame that we don't have the means to create our own N, to have the tools and the ingredients. I'm fed up with these restrictions imposed by pro-life groups, religions... If anyone wants to live, let them live, but leave alone anyone who wants to die. After all, no one asked to be born and we are not all equal at birth. Above all, others must understand that only oneself suffers from one's own suffering, from one's own body, etc., not others, except perhaps out of empathy or an attempt to see how others suffer. Therefore, everyone should be able to live their life as they see fit, knowing that no one asked to be born. It would only be fair to grant everyone this ultimate freedom without restrictions other than being clear-headed and ensuring the absence of external pressures (to avoid murders disguised as suicides or for inheritance purposes, for example). Motives such as being very ill, with such and such an illness, only physical, not mental for example, are worthless to me, because only the overall suffering and satisfaction of the person should be taken into account, especially when their requests are repeated or even increasingly strong.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes. Not just the awful experience itself but because I'm on my own. Any family and friends are 100's of miles away. I doubt they'd want to and I wouldn't expect them to look after me. I wouldn't have the money to pay for that level of care and, I'd find it very intrusive anyway. So- I absolutely need to make sure I'm out before things get like that bad.

 

[unluckysadness]

I can toilet, wash and cook for myself. But I can't do anything that involves participating in society because my social anxiety is so bad.

Same for me. Social anxiety is killing me and I'm forced to survive in social isolation. Not a life but forced to live like this.

 

[disabledlife]

I can toilet, wash and cook for myself. But I can't do anything that involves participating in society because my social anxiety is so bad.

Mee too and I'm afraid of strangers (caregivers, housekeepers, etc.) coming to my home to take care of my housework, personal hygiene, bathe me, help me go to the toilet... I prefer to live alone and independently, and only see people for leisure, conversation... and even then, I only like animals because they're the only ones who generally have empathy. Empathetic, sincere humans are extremely rare. They do exist, like here in this forum, for example, but they're rare elsewhere.

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly is so horrific how there is no limit as to how much a human can be tortured in this existence and the suffering and torture of existing is endless, I always fear what lies ahead and it terrifies me how this existence can continue for decades longer, existence truly is the most terrible, dreadful abomination, only in non-existence will I be safe and at peace from all pain and suffering, all I want is to be permanently unconscious with this torturous, deeply undesirable and cruel existence all gone and forgotten.