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I think people on here are at different stages of a process. Some people its about closure, or no pain, planning, ect. Also, just speaking for myself, yep, pretty dumb. :)
I'm dumb. Don't know about anyone else. One thing we lack, that those other cases don't, seems to be impulse.
Correct me if I'm wrong but, I feel like some people are lacking the "Just do it" mentality that those people seem to overcome so easily, well, I am anyways.
Correct me if I'm wrong but, I feel like some people are lacking the "Just do it" mentality that those people seem to overcome so easily, well, I am anyways.
I think it is a case of paralysis by analysis or crudely put, he who hesitates, masturbates.
The problem with modern society is that failed suicide attempts will result in psychiatric warding which honestly, is an even worse state.
That is why most people are pondering very carefully.
The problem with modern society is that failed suicide attempts will result in psychiatric warding which honestly, is an even worse state.
That is why most people are pondering very carefully.
TheGoodGuy
Visionary
- Aug 27, 2018
- 2,999
It´s easier to do as a teenager especially with depression because then you have a great emotional drive from the teenage hormones racing through your body, the depression and also the fact that at that age your frontal cortex isn´t fully developed so a lot of your thinking is emotional from the amygdala (the part of the brain controlling emotions)
I so wish I had killed myself as a teenager because I had so much drive to do it as mentioned above and it felt so good to think about suicide and everything sorrounding it but I stupidly decided to give life another chance and now I am an adult with no teenage hormones racing through my body and I have become apathetic and have anhedonia so I don´t feel emotions anymore i.e. no depression so no sadness either as a drive just nothing.
I so wish I had killed myself as a teenager because I had so much drive to do it as mentioned above and it felt so good to think about suicide and everything sorrounding it but I stupidly decided to give life another chance and now I am an adult with no teenage hormones racing through my body and I have become apathetic and have anhedonia so I don´t feel emotions anymore i.e. no depression so no sadness either as a drive just nothing.
Taki
Specialist
- Jul 30, 2019
- 319
Interesting, I was thinking the same thing yesterday. If I'd succeeded in my adolescent attempt, a whole lot of shit for myself and others would have been avoided. Bad decisions.
TheGoodGuy
Visionary
- Aug 27, 2018
- 2,999
Things never got better only worse both physically and mentally by each passing year, if I had killed myself at when I first got suicidal I would´ve spared myself over a decade of pain and suffering.
Young doesn't really understand the meaning of life and death and are ignorant , celebrities can easely get ton of high quality drugs, people in the past had easy access to barbiturics, nembutal, guns.
Where's the point of knowledge if you can't get the means?
Wayfaerer
JFMSUF
- Aug 21, 2019
- 1,938
You're absolutely correct, and as awful as your state my be, I can't help but envy that. I feel intense emotion all day, every day. Not wanting to go through with it deep down but having no choice because my life is now permafucked. It's wretched being in a position like that with such excruciating shame and regret. I never fully understood the phrase of "regretting the day you were born" until now. I remember the anhedonia I experienced during my homeschooling and prozac days and I look back in nostalgia, relatively speaking.
Dreamwithinadream
Member
- Sep 21, 2019
- 75
There is so much suffering in my life I have no idea why I haven't been able to end it yet. It's almost embarrassing at this point.
Ratherbeskinny
"Insert profound quote here."
- Oct 28, 2019
- 108
Killing yourself isn't hard. Living when the attempt(s) fail is.
SuicidalSymphonies
I think I'll take a dirt nap.
- Oct 13, 2019
- 1,028
Yup, I was 16 when an almost successful attempt was made and I had no hesitation whatsoever.
drake4871
The restless
- Sep 10, 2019
- 171
Some of us just want a peaceful moment without pain for our last moments, I definitely don't think anyone here is dumb for wanting that. Also, I would rather spend time researching the best method for me than be unable to attempt again or in a mental hospital indefinitely
Kodama
Experienced
- Oct 11, 2019
- 209
The more will stay here, arguing and lurking, the less will do it...
Perhaps it's the unconscious goal of our presence here
Perhaps it's the unconscious goal of our presence here
medicore
The man himself
- Nov 1, 2019
- 62
People have done it. That doesn't imply that a high % of people have done it. In the past, it's pretty certain that non-painful suicide attempts were much less often successful than they are today, due to lack of info. Think of the amount of people that would try to hang themselves on a loop that's also holding the anchor, or the amount of people that would try to slice their wrists open with a rock and end up just getting treated by someone after they got checked on.
It''s not a like for like comparison. Those who have succeeded are the ones you hear about. You don't hear about the many more failures. We are not dumb we are alive.
Life+me=error
Warlock
- May 22, 2019
- 736
This is a forum to discuss anything related to suicide and not a meeting place to actually commit suicide.
I don't think people today are dumber, actually nowadays more people commit suicide than ever before. Doesn't that make us smarter? :P
Kronos registered less than 4 weeks ago and it appears he did it. Of course, he may have been lurking for longer. But he was asking newbie questions about SN at the same time I was and 2 days later he posted his goodbye thread. Then again, I don't think he was stuck with his parents the same way I am
k75
L'appel du Vide
- Jun 27, 2019
- 2,546
For me, it's a few different things. It's not that I'm dumb... I'm just not impulsive. And I don't want to hurt myself more than necessary, so I'm taking my time. Also, I don't really want it to end this way. I guess I'm secretly hoping for a miracle, for unfixable problems to magically become bearable, for the intense suicidal ideation to disappear. On paper, I have a lot to live for. I want to wake up one day and have my reality reflect that.
I think it's the other way around. If we were dumb, we wouldn't be endlessly contemplating and analyzing all the things that could go wrong, what would happen to us if they do, and so on. If we were truly dumb, we would just jump into it and do it without all the thought cycles we're putting into the process.
For me, it's part SI and part over-analyzing it. When I'm getting ready to try, my mind fills up with all the thoughts of what it's going to be like when people first find out, what holidays will be like 1, 2, 5, 10 years down the road, how I'm going to miss all the changes that happen in the world, etc. I've also had a lifelong aversion to doing anything permanent... I have a really hard time doing anything that can't be undone. It's so bad that sometimes I go a while without eating because I know that once something is eaten, it is gone and can't be brought back. That aversion to doing anything permanent is hard and a huge reason why I'm still here (since CTB is definitively permanent).
For me, it's part SI and part over-analyzing it. When I'm getting ready to try, my mind fills up with all the thoughts of what it's going to be like when people first find out, what holidays will be like 1, 2, 5, 10 years down the road, how I'm going to miss all the changes that happen in the world, etc. I've also had a lifelong aversion to doing anything permanent... I have a really hard time doing anything that can't be undone. It's so bad that sometimes I go a while without eating because I know that once something is eaten, it is gone and can't be brought back. That aversion to doing anything permanent is hard and a huge reason why I'm still here (since CTB is definitively permanent).
Kodama
Experienced
- Oct 11, 2019
- 209
Neurodamaged2
Member
- Oct 28, 2019
- 69
I've tried so many times, plus had ECT, that my brains been fundamentally damaged. I'm just numb now, there's no drive to do anything. Before, I recognized my problems and had a drive to end them with suicide. Now I lack that drive, I'm just a shell of who I was. I just procrastinate and not care.
bigj75
“From Knowledge springs power."
- Sep 1, 2018
- 2,540
I think level of desperation and spur of the moment. alot of people didn't 2nd guess themselves much and had access to our resources so there was no room for 2nd guessing. they just did it.
I'm sorry, I never reply on this, but this made me laugh. It was much needed. Thank you.
DoNotLet2
Wizard
- Oct 14, 2019
- 684
I am a teenager 18 years old and I am already lacking the drive :(
Oh, yeah mental health wards are in 2 possible versions - you do nothing or they want to make you go ctb much more.
Oh, yeah mental health wards are in 2 possible versions - you do nothing or they want to make you go ctb much more.
CrushedHopes
Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
- Nov 3, 2019
- 471
I'm very concerned about how much pain I'll be experiencing before I CTB, which is why I researched relatively painless methods and compared them. If pain wasn't a consideration, I'd wager that I would just jump or even drown myself already, despite serious consequences in the event of failure.
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many suicide attempts fail and the vast majority of people survive their suicide attempts because they do it impulsively. We want to do reasearch to find methods that are lethal and relatively painless.
CrushedHopes
Ex-narcissist that is looking to end himself soon
- Nov 3, 2019
- 471
You're right. That's what happened with my first CTB attempt. Just chugged a bottle of pills without any regard as to what they actually are, so that was definitely done impulsively, without a doubt. I managed to survive with no complications, aside from a few seizures when I was sent to the ER.
But this time, I've carefully researched how SN works, ordered the materials, and I am committed to CTB. It's not done on impulse. I'm just done with everything and I want out of this.
Alec
Wizard
- Apr 22, 2019
- 681
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